𝐊𝐎𝐙𝐌𝐈𝐂 𝐁𝐋𝐔𝐄𝐒

i can't ignore anything that comes out of your mouth, i like the way those lips move way too damn much. i know jimin would probably appreciate it and cherish it because it's coming from you, but anyone else? i don't know. how about you, like, rhinestone yourself up and send me some naughty pictures? i do. so keep on keeping on. we'll be in spain on the 26th. PRIVATE: yeah, i can. let me go somewhere private though. what's up? you okay? is rodney okay?

so when you say "move," do you mean when i talk, or...? because i feel like it's the "or..." that's doing the heavy lifting here. you act as though i haven't already bedazzled a stanley cup for him. we're literally going to match when i arrive in spain. and i would, but i don't have enough rhinestones for that and i'm also not entirely convinced the glue is supposed to go on boobs. okay, i'll make sure to meet you at the hotel then. PRIVATE: so... last night i got into this huge fight with rudy and i was so freaking upset that i almost couldn't breathe. i tried calling you, but i think you were at soundcheck.

oh, alright. i think i got it. you were side eyeing me because i'm just so sexy and irresistible to you and you wanted me so badly in the moment it made you angry and side-eyeing? now you think they are sexy? what happened to the grandpa comment? i think you should, i really do think you have talent. i'm always going to be supportive of you, even when you bully me. i want to and it's my duty. i'm gonna miss waking up beside you every day, glue head. don't let glen powell flirt with you too hard, alright? or i'm hopping on a plane back to texas.

whatever makes you feel good about yourself, baby. you can't expect me to say anything even remotely awful after you basically just hyped yourself up. shush. just take the compliment and ignore everything else that comes out of my mouth. really? do you think the guys would like one as well? because i still have a lot of rhinestones left in my bedazzling kit. okay, but didn't you also say that you kind of liked it when i bullied you? and you have no idea how much i miss having you around all the time. when are you leaving for spain? ...shut up. PRIVATE: can you facetime me? i really need to talk to you.

i can garner a pretty safe bet on how you feel or what you thought or wish based on your reactions. you were always a hot head, madelyn. or weren't you the one who unfollowed chase after hanging out with his other ex at the time, kelsea? yeah see, chase and i still have met up and talked at events. you want me to be an asshole, i can be the fucking asshole madelyn. i genuinely wanted to come say congratulations on the final season that i can't imagine it was easy and that part of it was because of me. was trying to be fucking nice but you always have this way of needlepointing into a person until they crack. right, so supportive while y'all were making it well known how you felt about her. sorry i got defensive because she was fucking important to me. what do you want me to do, mads, i can't go back and unring the bell. i said i made a fucking mistake, i let her get into my mind. believe it or not, despite what others may think, men can end up in toxic relationships that they don't know how to get out of. but right because i was a grown man, should have just fucking known better. wasn't like i felt like i was drowning or anything because fuck rudy how did every other person in the world feel? yeah i did fucking love it so what does that tell you, madelyn? no one seemed to notice that the last fucking interviews i was so checked out i was barely interacting. didn't see your concern there because i couldn't undo any of it. i knew what was coming, and i hated every fucking second of it. you know what i'm not going to argue with you madelyn, you made me the villain in your story and that's fine. i accept that. doesn't matter what i was genuinely going through because sorry you wouldn't have been the first person i decided to open up to for this reason. but if you think losing maddie wasn't the hardest thing i've ever gone through. losing a friend group that i thought would be with me the rest of my life then, i don't know what to tell you. maybe you didn't know me at all. maybe i didn't know you. cool. yeah well, chase and drew and i have managed to be civil at events. so i guess it is what it is. like i said i came here to say congrats on a final season, hope press goes well, wish you the best.

what the fuck did you just say to me? how dare you use that as leverage when you of all people knew exactly what happened between us and what he did. and if you're buddies with chase and drew again, and i clearly wasn't on the list of people you even considered reaching out to, then why contact me, huh? and you're right about one thing: you are a fucking douchebag. never in my life did i imagine i'd be sitting here thinking that you're one of the worst people to ever cross my path. okay, so now i'm not only a petty bitch, but i'm manipulative too? for fuck's sake, no one liked her, rudy. not a single person who came across her found her appealing. she was a stuck up bitch who took advantage of you, and everyone could see it. but what exactly did you expect us to do? it's not like we didn't try to talk to you. it's not like we didn't try to convince you to at least think things through before finalizing a decision that would ultimately damage your career. and honestly, i don't even know what to say to the rest of that. i'm sorry you were stuck in a toxic environment, but there was only so much we could do before we eventually accepted that you'd made your choice. and since you've just pointed out that i wasn't a safe person for you, then i honestly don't know what you wanted from me. but you know what sucks about this little rant of yours? i told you that you were one of the biggest heartbreaks of my life, and your response was to make me feel like i never mattered to you in the first place. so how about you focus on healing and leave me alone? because yeah, right now, you are a fucking villain. dumbass.

opposite, i broke things off with her, but glad you were praying on my downfall regardless. it's fine, you want to be mad at me, be mad at me. i get it, okay? i was feeling pulled in eight different directions and someone was going to get hurt no matter how i played it. i was going to be the shitty person no matter what happened. if you think it was easy to throw maddie under the bus you're fucking wrong, that's where i'll stop you there. i fucking hated myself and still do for hurting her. please don't pretend to know how it was. i lost all of my friends, every fucking one of them madelyn. i didn't have people to lean on, and yes that was my doing but it was never because i didn't fucking care. being told i was cheating when i'm not a cheater, having to constantly defend why i'm working a job that everyone is seemingly becoming miserable with. i'll take my hits where they're due but it's not like you all gave fuck in the end. think the only one who maybe did was maddie and i'll stand ten toes down that yeah i fucked that one. you want me to be the bad guy in the story, i've accepted that role.

you don't even want to know half the shit i've wished upon you, but sure, your downfall was definitely in the top three. don't you freaking dare play the victim and act like you didn't have a choice in the matter. you're a grown man, rudy, and because of that, you should've known better. you should've known that we would've stood by you. we would've supported both you and her despite our apprehension about her, because at the end of the day, she made you happy. instead, you and her collectively decided that we were somehow standing in the way of that happiness, which is so freaking unfair considering we've always been there for each other no matter what. we would've understood if you needed space. we would've understood if she didn't particularly like being around maddie. but to close the door entirely and walk away from a job that i know you loved? that's wild. that's where you're wrong, though. you didn't lose us. you threw us away and for a long time, we waited for you to come back. you see, the difference between me and maddie is that she's a good person with a heart of gold. i'm not. you took her for granted and while she might welcome you back with open arms, just know that it's going to take a lot more than that sorry ass excuse. and if you were that miserable, then why didn't you talk to us? why did you make it seem like this was the easiest decision you'd ever made? excusez moi? i didn't give a fuck? don't you fucking dare make it sound like your exit wasn't one of the biggest heartbreaks of my life, rudy. i'm not going to speak on behalf of chase, drew, or any of the others, but you broke our hearts. and i'm sorry if that devastation eventually turned into anger, but that's your own freaking fault.

Miss you like you wouldn't believe and it's only going to get worse and I get busier with Spiderman press that's coming out. Maybe I could buy a pair of handcuffs and that way you would never have to stray from my side. We'll take codependentcy to a whole other level. Are you in? @madelncline

and you have no idea how much i miss you, and just being around you every day. it's so weird waking up and not having you make my morning coffee. doesn't help that i'm busy with work all the time, either. oh my god, one hundred percent yes. sounds a little kinky and we definitely need to figure out how we're going to handle showering and, you know... other private things.

alright, i'm going to just get it over with and rip off the bandaid. know it's been a fuck you level of time since we've spoken and i get it, you have every right to be pissed at me but wanted to say, know that there's going to be promotion for the last season of the show coming soon enough and really just - wanted to say i'm thinking about everyone. @madelncline

let me guess... she dumped your ass, or did you finally manage to see what we've all been seeing? you know what i think is funny, rudy? it's that i genuinely thought we were all closer than that. closer than being disposable. and i get that you wanted to prioritize your relationship with her. i do. but it's that you found it so fucking easy to throw maddie under the bus to please her. and because of what? an on-screen relationship? that's messed up. your promotion means shit, because at the end of the day, we meant shit too.

i have learned something this last month or so well two things. one is if you put on red trunks with a baywatch logo and run around the beach people go crazy. number two noah beck is the eddie of baywatch all the girls just love him. you are on set with him and no one looks at you. anywho i am stephen you might of heard i am filming something really cool right now. it's nice to meet you all.

as someone who grew up with baywatch, especially the hawaii version with a young jason momoa, i can definitely agree with that. so.. where are you shooting baywatch and can i come be part of the audience? nice to meet you too, stephen. i'm madelyn.

📱 𝐓𝐄𝐗𝐓 𝐌𝐄𝐒𝐒𝐀𝐆𝐄 — mads

MADELYN: 😭😭😭 MADELYN: i can neither confirm or deny that.. MADELYN:

hold on now... what were you side eyeing? my sexy glasses? god forbid i can't see without them, my beautiful queen. i know you just made that to mock me, but babe... this is the best thing i've ever seen. i'm taking it everywhere with me. the duality of two handles? big brain energy. they're going to try and put plastic water bottles on stage for me and you know what i'm going to tell them? absolutely not. i have to use my joon cup. saving the turtles and supporting my girls art dreams.

you really have to ask me why i was side eyeing you? have you not watched the vlog, baby? do you need stronger glasses or where are we at? ...they are sexy, though. i'm not disagreeing with you there, my handsome king. it kind of was, but now that you actually find it practical, i'm totally going to make this my side hustle and open an etsy account. look at you being all hot and supportive of your woman and her bedazzled sippy cup... i have hot glue in my hair, but it was worth it.

what the hell kind of bestie would i be if i didn't think of you? of course i got you something... but i didn't get joon anything... don't tell him. no, i don't feel guilt tripped, because maddie, you have a man. ask him to buy you a new pair of shoes. in fact... he should be bringing you back home gifts every single day. is he not? i have my own man to dote over and buy stuff for. i'm just saying. by the way, i love you and miss you. you coming to busan or you have to film?

but, like, that's all i wanted to know.. a simple yes or no would've been sufficient, you know. then you're in luck that he doesn't really appreciate receiving things. he's more of a giver. which means that, sure, he spoils me, but it's not the same as putting on a pair of shoes and telling myself, "my best friend got me these." half of my walk-in wardrobe consists of gifts i've received from joon, but i'd love for you to at least represent a small part of it. and i love you and miss you too. no.. i have to work, but i will come to madrid.