ivo-rybotnik's MaDD blog

I've seen a couple reddit posts of people trying to quit MaDD (nofap style) and it inspired me to do the same, considering that I daydreamed my ass through almost all of 2023 ("kinda" fucked up my uni work over it), my current fear is that this might be temporary. I'm currently at home for the holidays - and I will be for the next three weeks. I just hope I don't lose control while I'm here.

The future is something I refuse to face. Even if it towers over me.

I’ve lived more lives in my head than in real life at this point.

This is assembled through a combination of PDFs I'd already accumulated, my library checkout history, reading list, and things I found in the process of making this. I have not read every single thing in here (some I’ve only read parts of, some I haven’t touched) and can’t attest to the quality of every book, this is just an assemblage of potentially worthwhile reading.

Cool, mysterious, unique, makes you sound like some kind of sci-fi witch or wizard

I made this on that stupid pinterest collage app, please enjoy

— мєяакι

My daydrims

(autism is green because I’m like 99.9999999% sure I’m autistic but I’m not diagnosed.)

i realise that what i thought was so quirky about me as a little kid (though i still had negative effects from it even then) was actually just severe dissociation disguised as “dreaming!”