we're just normal mads.

always so weird when it's hard to swallow a pill i take regularly lol. makes me feel like a horse girl in a horse girl movie having to soothe the Problem Horse

also. ALSO. is it just me or is it majorly fucked that i'm still having respiratory symptoms. i've been taking three different antihistamines a day for almost a week. plus a leukotriene inhibitor. what could Possibly still be giving me respiratory attacks That bad as far as things outside my own body go

yk in some ways it is almost comforting to be so swiftly punished by my own body for eating something off limits. sometimes i get too in my own head and start getting worried i've secretly been making everything up and just scaring myself too badly to eat real food. but noooope it's real. boooooooo

went to the store the other day to get some more of the specific antihistamines i'm trying out for the next week ish (today i had an hours long respiratory attack in the morning followed by like half a day of not exactly scary but mostly distressing chest tightness and the grocery store mislabeled some tortillas i ate so i have some bad reflux too :'] so i feel like they are NOT WORKING!!!!!!) and the smallest bottle of generic xyzal they had was. 80 tablets. so hey if i ever run into any of y'all and you need some allergy meds i've got u covered.

talked on the phone with my grandmother earlier and it was mostly fine but i Did have to shut down some weight talk from her. and i keep feeling guilty abt it but i shouldn't... i was right and i was kind yet firm about it. and she actually listened!!

every year it feels like i end up drawing at least one cat furry during artfight, which is all well and good except for the fact that that means i Also have to relearn how to draw cat faces every year. i swear i keep accidentally using the same stock image for reference and everything LOL