𝖑𝖎𝖆𝖇𝖎𝖑𝖎𝖙𝖞.

mary macdonald was born maryam madani, to an iranian mother who wasn’t expecting her, but loved her nonetheless. zahra madani came to england for what was supposed to be graduate school, but instead turned into a surprise pregnancy with an english boyfriend who didn’t stick around very long after zahra told him she was pregnant 

it took zahra a while to finish grad school with a newborn baby but she did it !!! we stan a queen. eventually started her own private psychology practice in birmingham 

a single, immigrant iranian mother raising her daughter in 1960s england ?? that’s tough bro ! madani became macdonald, zahra became sarah, and maryam became mary in order to make mary’s childhood as seamless as possible

but even so, mary was always different as a child in ways her mother couldn’t explain

spoiler: it’s cause she’s a witch

mary always was kind of an awkward loner as a child. it meant she studied a lot tho !! lil baby nerd spent all her afternoons at the library cause her mother was working and it was cheaper than paying for childcare

wow tb to when mary was good at school... #spoileralert

anyways and then they found out that hey ! mary was a witch ! whoa 

so she started at her semi-local wizarding school super excited n then found out that everyone else already knew so much more than her.... she just felt so behind and dumb and very discouraged yanno 

plus she was far from home for the first time !!! she missed her mom !! homesick bb

when she went to hogwarts she was like. fuck this i’m reinventing myself. i’m gonna be the Fun And Exciting one 

so she was always the class clown, wore a lot of badly applied makeup, goofed off in class and hiked her skirt up a few inches shorter, spread rumours about herself to make herself more interesting, talked loudly and made inappropriate jokes and got drunk on school nights 

she liked attention and liked being liked

she bases her self-worth on how other people view her..... girl thats Unhealthy but idk she does it anyway

was ofc getting flak for being muggleborn but she kind of put on a v carefree attitude to hide it

obviously her grades were slipping but she kept on that who cares attitude, and at home told her mom that p meant perfect

as the years passed, she felt more and more like an impostor, searching for her passion and her place in the wizarding world, flitting from friend to friend and fling to fling, quitting different clubs and joining another

but idk as loud and crass and aimless as she could be .... she never rly had a bad word to say about people ? she always believed in the best possible version of other people

SCARS TW / until she woke up one day in fifth year, eighteen years old, in the hospital wing with jagged white scars running along her side and across her chest, and no memory of how they got there / END TW

madam pomfrey told her she’d been attacked and was found unconscious and badly hurt in the third floor hallway. but whether it was the result of a spell, or the trauma, or because she was under the influence, mary has no memories of the night

the rumours all point to mulciber, and she chooses to believe it because it’s not like she has a better idea 

the week before her attack, her divination professor told her there was danger approaching. at the time, mary brushed it off with a laugh and an eye roll, but she fixated on it afterwards

now idk she’s really into divination ? it’s one of the few things she takes seriously. she always has her pack of tarot cards on her. her line of thinking is that if magic is possible, why can’t divination be possible ? it’s kind of a coping mechanism i guess. she needs something to lean on, something to believe with all the uncertainty in her life

she knows she’s a cliche and a cautionary tale but she doesn’t know how to be anything but

she’s not super happy rn but listen that just means there’s room for character growth