INVISIBLE

Hi hello not sure if anyone still pays attention to this blog. But imma unload some things.

I don’t know how many people pay attention to this blog, but I really miss my ex. I’m sad most of the time, and I know that having the mentality that relationships will make me happy is bad, but I feel like I’m adopting that idea even if I’m not actively acting on it. I haven’t spoken to him since December and it had gotten better, but I still cry about him randomly and I’ve came to the conclusion that I want him back, but I know that now isn’t the right time. I understand we broke because of academics and that’s what gets me. It wasn’t because we were incompatible, or one of us is a really shitty person. He wants to be a doctor and I understand breaking up was a sacrifice. I get it and I know I would’ve done the same thing. I want him back in my life, but I know that it will just hurt me in the end. He really loved me and I really loved him and I know we’ll both find love again somewhere but... I don’t know

hi hello im just here to complain