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breh the passive agressive parinigan ng fb shared posts between me, my friends, my relatives (na butetetards), takes me tf out HAHAHAHAHAAHA but i am so SO MAD HOW COME THEY ARE REJOICING that she visited THREE FUCKING WEEKS AFTER THE FLOOD. AND PEOPLE ARE STILL GRATEFUL SHE CAME?????? IDGI MAN, SHE'S OBVIOUSLY TRYING SO HARD TO NOT MAKE PEOPLE FORGET THAT SHE EXISTS despite being away for so so long from her post and being out of the country :D SHE REALLY BADLY WANTS TO GET THAT PROMOTION and she will still get it because of these fanatics :DDD 3 weeks late pero okay lang kasi at least mayroong tulong. 3 weeks late and they'll still help her get promoted because she helped them even if she's three weeks late -- the city is still in shambles, still chaotic, and still not cleaned up enough. She still gets their vote, despite of the lack of effort that she provides. The standard is beyond the depths of hell bruh. It's so frustrating to see all this happening rn.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA it's so frustrating. it feels like i'm in an abyss trying to crawl my way out and reaching for the light hoping that it pulls me out if i ever get my finger lodged in one of the dent it had at the edge before i fell off the endless space.

ang productive ng weekend ko haha naglinis ako ng slight sa room ko, pati sa kapatid ko (kasi he's away for awhile), then naglaba ako, nagbake ako ng dalawang kinds of bread, nagluto pa ako ng makakain shet who am i HAHAHA also HUHUHU FINALLY FINALLY MADE DECENT sourdough bread!!!! ugh j need to perfect the crust but the inside is fully cooked through!?!?!? after idk 7-8 attempts but also kasi better starter na din since mag-1yr old na yung starter ko hahaha ang next struggle nanaman nito is kung paano ko uubusin HAHA

i just realized that both me and my sister are planners - but different type of planners. i wouldn't exactly say we're the Type A planners but it's so interesting to see how different we plan. napaisip me because lately we've been planning for a trip pauwi and honestly, i barely plan (now). HAHAHA when i went home the last time with my bf, i barely planned shet - we just made sure we got the hotel and flights booked and other than that, bahala na kung saan mapadpad. but my sister is the type of planner that plans almost every hour of it lol. honestly, i was her too at some point hahaha (hello undergrad days). i guess she's closer to the Type A one but I also realized why we're so different planners. me, i grew up having to plan everything so that things don't go to shit. i am expected to be responsible/control things as an eldest dowter. while her, she grew up as the youngest, so she plans down to the tee because growing up, she barely controls stuff. i think we plan for different reasons: i plan because i had to, she plans because she wants to. it's so freaking interesting. HAHAHAHA dagdag mo pa na leo kami both but different types of leo din. Siya si Bretman Rock, ako si Demi Lovato. hahaha anyways lol can't wait for the beach --- as a beach person thru and thru 👉 😔 👈

every time umuuwi kami sobrang dami kong gustong gawin, kitain, kainin, puntahan pero kaakibat din nun yung takot at pangamba na iba na yung mga tao at pakikitungo nila sa akin. sobrang weird na sa palagay ko tahanan ko pa din yung bahay na kinalakhan ko pero at the same time, dayuhan na ako dun. na para bang nagiging 3rd world kid na ako pero not really kasi dun naman ako nagkamalay talaga at lumaki. ang tagal ko na rito pero hindi ko pa rin ramdam na i belong here but now i also don't belong home. i don't belone anywhere anymore.

kashdkashfkasfa i help im overwhelmed hajksdhakljshfdas im so used to having my brother speaking and talking and playing his game beside me +++ having someone on my ear talking hjakhsdkjahsf but today i am suddenly very very overwhelmed but i dont have the heart to tell anyone to stop talking AHAHAHAJKSDHAJFBASBFAHSGBFHNJHSDJAHSDJKASA now im so irritable and snappy huhuhu i feel bad but hajksdjkashdfafjka kaya dito nlng muna