MA IDEOLOGY

with the same feelings over and over again

forgetting the obvious like its worth the pain

after glorious moments i want to celebrate

silence and loneliness keep on holding me back

from celebrating it with proud and smiles full of warmth

to sleepless nights with cries that are familliar with the question of

am i unworthy to be loved

not because i am a sinless little child

Jika rinduku tak pernah menyisihkanmu rasa pilu yang merekah,

Jika rasa sakitku tak berguna dalam penarikan mu dari semua aktivitas yang melibatkan si wanita,

Jika kerelaanku dalam pertemanan baikmu tak bisa menyadarkan mu dari segala keromantisan yang kau perbuat dengan segala pengertianku namun tidak sebaliknya,

Jika 'mengerti'mu dan 'iya'mu sering tak bisa kau indahkan,

Jika perkataanmu yang awal itu mengenai perbedaanmu dengan lelaki lain tak dapat kau realisasikan,

Maka ku katakan,

Aku lelah dengan hubungan yang saling merugikan ini sayang.

Crazy things doesnt make sense

Andai hal hal besar belum berlalu

Dan panorama tidak berliku

But we might not think about the same thing under the same stars, Over the same oar, Until night

Dont you know about what hurts?

terus berjalan karena sebuah keharusan, menahan dan membiarkannya tumpah karena ya bagaimana

kutahan dengan tangan hingga kulitnya berkelupas dan airpun berceceran

First she dont want to get married

She thinks that marrying her would torture you to the flesh

Cause she has that bad character of never feeling enough

She has that bad character that living with her would took an-everytime-and-lifetime doubt

She has that issue which makes her craving for love

She will hurt you everytime you tried to catch her up

Cause she is a freak

She is a monster

And she is an everytime evil of herself

Even if we still have to marry, she dont want any children

She cant help to force her future kid to adapt with this evil kind of life

She dont want to push her kid to be the best of the best until they got exhausted

She has that feeling of a tiring adaption to cruel life

And moreover, they will have the girl's freak gene so theyll got tortured the more they tried to survive

Only survive

So why should i keep you with me when i know that i will let you go? And why should i still be with you when everything we done is nothing more than nothing?