Melody_P

I can't mix inspirations because then I'd have to run into the headache of nabbing aspects from both while still making something comprehensible (and most importantly, good).

I can't just do random shit because no one stumbles into a masterpiece, especially newbies.

I don't have enough of my own unique voice to do it anyways, it'll still turn out bland.

17th birthday! I don't have a video prepped yet, should probably wait until next week, but it'll be something I've never done before.

Essentially, given that I struggle with making more original stuff, why not make a small series of songs very much inspired by other pre-existing songs?

This is the "Parasite" Series ("Parasite" because I'm essentially a leech). Five or so songs meant to kinda be echoes of songs by trans creators (with my own personal twist).

I've already gotten a bit into lyric-writing for an Echo of STOMACH BOOK's Fukouna Girl, and the same with one for femtanyl's KATAMARI. Not very good, but they're something and they have pretty defined themes.

FAKEouna Girl (which Fukouna Girl's Echo, duh) is essentially about how mainly the most extreme voices of positivity and negativity get attention on the internet, so if I wanted to say something that'll actually be seen, I'd probably have to lie through my teeth.

Like, I'm not AVERAGE, I know that, but I sometimes just feel boring. Like I'll just be part of a crowd.

I'd like to weirder. Freakier. More creative and passionate and all that jazz.

Maybe I need to feel more ti get there.

Maybe I need to know myself more.

Why am I doing it?

How am I doing it?

Like, I don't HATE myself (I feel like I'm moreso neutral-leaning-negative), but I think if I actually loved myself unconditionally, if I accepted myself, then I'd stagnate even more.

I don't want to love my mediocrity, my laziness,the stuff that makes me human but I wish I didn't have.