te quiero

4 months have already passed, but it's still u. It will always be u . I am near u , i exist with u, but i can't even hold u, and i know i can never reach u.

im such a fool for thinking that there will be "kapag pwede na, pwede pa". lowered my standard only to be hurt like shit, I let undeserved things happen to me which is my fault. what a fool.

i can explore through my mind, thinking about the things i can and want to do, creating dreams i want to achieve. but i can’t, i can’t get up early in the morning, i can’t feel anything, and i can’t even help myself escape from the chaos i live in. 

unconsciously entered a cave swallowing you into a realm of darkness, as you have found no way out panic attacks followed creating chaos within. expecting someone to come, but you are also afraid that you may pull them in.

Ang hirap bumangon. Bumangon sa sitwasyon na hindi mo naman ginusto una palang, sa sitwasyon na kailanman hindi mo nakita ang sarili mo na nakatayo, sa sitwasyon na hindi mo naman pag-aari. Mahirap ngunit kailangan, kailangan tumayo at makaalis sa lugar na hindi naman ako naaayon.

truth and pain wore a mask, a mask of love. You will explore your life with a love that will make you wander through the hell disguised as paradise. You will experience rainbows and butterflies where blades are hidden behind. Through its magical appearance, it will pierce through you that will cause you a scar. A scar that will make you stronger and powerful, a scar that will take you to your path of worth. 

You and me under the moonlight and stars, swaying, dancing, following the rhythm of the music, holding each other like there's no tomorrow, whispering our love for each other. Letting butterflies create a feeling we all crave and mesmerizing ourselves with the memories we create. Ain't that a beautiful sight to hold? A memory worth keeping with you.

Hayaan mong magalit siya sa ginawa mo pero wag na wag kang magsisinungaling at relasyon niyo ang masisira dito. Pag may ginawa kang mali natural na magagalit ang nagawan mo nito, pero wag mo itong irason at piliin na itago at gumawa ng panibagong pagkakamali dahil lang sa tingin mo ay maaayos nito ang nagawa mo. Hindi, hindi ito maaayos ng panibagong pagkakamali at hindi yan ang tunay na dahilan kung bakit hindi mo maamin ang katotohanan, ito ay dahil mas gusto mong salbahin ang sarili mo kesa sa maayos mo ang problema ninyo.