I do a thing called "what I want"

All that I wanted was for you to see me in this orderly chaotic world. :-(

But a beauty

WARNING! A lengthy one.😅 Today I started the first hour of my work feeling grateful. Grateful that little things matter, a pat in the back is what everybody needs and I got mine today. 😊😊 Today I’ve realised that when rock bottom hits you it hits really hard. I realised that when loneliness strikes you are in desperate need of yourself, finding yourself and fixing yourself. Getting up and taking it day by day, going through the process and still being positive that things will fall according To Gods plan. I have been in my weakest and the strongest days of my life. Cried for so long, felt nothing but numbness. I realised that we should all be the better version of ourselves. Be kind even when your tired. Do more of what is asked of you. Don’t silently expect something in return too. Be the greatest person you can ever be, and when you messed up make up for it in the next moment, next minute and even the slightest second of it. Just shout “plot twist” and move on. And when you don’t see light, don’t worry. Like what they’ve said like moths, good people are attracted to the flame of light and they will come. #happiness #gratefuleverydamnday

WARNING! Essay writing!😂😂 So I decided to take myself out for a drink after 6 days of work. My comfort zone. Since I'm starting to develop my beer-belly I decided for a single shot of Glenlivet. Neat. Smooth. Slowly burning inside me. Ordered the next shot when a mid 30's guy (I guess) came up and asked me a lot of things. Cool. Yeah! Let's chat. Whatever! But I'm not getting so comfortable as I wanted my me-time. I stayed calm, as always. Ordered the 3rd shot. Guy left. Happy me! Yay!😄😄 As it's getting late and feeling like Cinderella I decided I should challenge myself for Macallan12 before heading home. Chill. Smooth with a kick. Everything is in slow motion again. I liked it. Then another guy (almost 40 I guess) approached me and said good choice. Thanked him. Still the uninterested me is so obvious, I guess. 😅 Asked me if I had a boyfriend. Lol And told him that I followed my heart and led me to this whiskey. He laughed. Happy guy! 😂 Asked him if he knew that whiskey girls are the good kind of bad news, he started laughing again. Weird. But didn't answer. Instead told me that whiskey girls have good stories to tell. Good observation. I smiled, he left. Yay!😃 Moral of the story? I dont know? My fingers just couldn't stop typing. So I'm really not sure where this heading to. 😅 Talk to strangers. Drink whiskey. Be an old soul, savor each shot and each smoke. Like memories you had. Know when to drink quickly. And if you don't want to talk with anyone, do not, I repeat, DO NOT make an eye to eye contact. It triggers the "hi, hello " line. Could I be sober or drunk while writing this? Nah.. don't think so. Just enjoying my whiskey and ice. 😊😉😉

#missingyou #missingyousilently #behere #bewithme #iwantyou #him

"Beauty" When I saw this picture of an old lady, I can't help but see myself 40 or 50 years from now. Old. Powdered white hair that's neatly braided. Gleaming milky eyes with so much happiness. That time-worn skin, proof that everybody grows old. That gnarled fingers holding that smoky cigarette. Old fashioned clothes. Quacking-quavering voice, sign of weakness. Lastly, that beautiful smile that you wouldn't even notice that lines on her face. You wouldn't think that she's almost a foot or two in a grave. I just hope she has tattoos too. It will be super me. 😊😀 OLD is BEAUTIFUL. #lykalikes #happiness #singleness (at Taguig)

"Write hard and clear about what really hurts" #ernesthemingway #ernesthemingwayquotes #homealone (at Taguig, Philippines)

My kind of girl..😊☺ #lykalikes #happiness #positivity #strongwomen #strongerthanever (at Makati, Philippines)

😞😔 (at Makati, Philippines)

Hello there pretty girl.😊 #prettygirls #happymonday #lykalikes #happiness #5/6th #16/365

I have never known the right person, if I didn't let go of the wrong one. I am letting this anklet go that was on me for more than 5 years. Letting go, all the pain and heartache. I will continue to be strong during my weakest and scariest day. I am starting the year right letting go all the pain, hatred and memories you gave. I am seeing a better me. I am happy now and I hope you are too. #lykalikes #happiness

"Remember why you started" Happy Sunday!😉 #rainysunday #nofilter #letsgonatural #lykalikes #happiness #strongerthanever

"She can take care of herself just fine still she only wants a man who is willing to lay it all on the line to make sure shes ok. But she will never ask for that. Because when it is real, she knows she won't have to" #jmstorm #theruinsbacolod #letsgonatural #nofilter #lykalikes #happiness #inlove (at The Ruins Talisay City Negros Occidental)