"ǀ'м ƇƖєνєя Ɩιкє тнαт!!"

If anyone cares, I am alive. I haven’t been on in so long, but I am alive.

There's a small part of me that misses you all, that wants to come back. The larger part? That part is dragging me down to the pits of hell, where my depression and suicidal thoughts strangle me into unconsciousness.  The place where I'm no longer functional. Alive. I don't want to live this anymore. If I don't come back... Please don't cry for me.

I don't even think I'm needed anymore; with less than five drafts and no motivation to do anything, I feel like maybe I should throw in the towel... I'm not as good as the others, parum-imperio is beyond my talents in many ways, and that is but one example. I'm not even needed in real life. I get bullied, even on campus, about my appearance and my mental illnesses and maybe they're right- You guys don't need me, either. I'm just as alone as I am in school and at home... Thank you for giving me a sliver of hope, but now it's gone out. Goodbye.