Seili

I feel so misunderstood this week. Everything i say gets taken out of context,that's why I've been staying quiet. I feel like I'm being scolded by my own dad. 😔 I almost feel like I'm transported to the beginning of this. Nothing i say means anything right now. I just don't want to feel this right now Not now I give up

Looking at all my journal entries from 2013 Every suppressed feeling Made me break down at how sometimes i still feel like i did 4 years ago Some things just do not change

I wonder when it will be my turn How much longer do i have to wait 😔

I have lost my dear aunt... My heart sank driving home getting the call from my mom,knowing that she had a tone to her voice. Checking on me before she let me know that my aunt finally left us. I stayed strong on the phone til i hung up,i started shaking and i cried. I cried calling my brother in law. I have a lump in my throat and a weight on my chest, and it's hard for me to stay focused on anything at the moment. It's crazy,but i always thought she'd be there forever... but this just makes life seem so much more real. I cried thinking about her last words to me. It hurts that i won't physically have her in my life anymore. But a part of me is at peace knowing that she is now resting with my uncle,and that she is no longer in pain and suffering. I'll miss her for all my life But I'm happy knowing that she gave me some wonderful memories