DECTAPI GARDEN

Realizing the jealous feelings I get whether right or wrong always depend on the trust of the partner. I only get jealous with NoCap cause theres no true trust but with *** I couldn’t give two flying fucks cause at the end of the day I know they want no one but me but if that’s not something your energy or behavior gives off it will always trigger jealous energy within because my literal gut instinct is telling me something is wrong. It’s off and I can’t always pretend not to fuck w that I’ve been correct 100% of the time

My brand is beating a dead horse

I miss jasiel. Just pardon this moment of weakness tumblr

On here to give myself props for learning to be able to recognize relationships and dynamics that do not suit me and walking away from them. Tbh I’ve really been getting better with dealing with these “breakups” I used to be the one to hold on and I’m happy to finally be the one to say enough this is no longer good for me and I need to stop. Small self care goal that I’m v proud of

How do you want me to commit more of myself to you when you tell me you slept with someone else. The fuck

Lmao the only friend of mine on twitter that got defensive over my thread about the difference between gossip and ethical chisme was literally a person hiding a bunch of info from her friends surrounding ex’s or flings of theirs she ended up hooking up with and I’m like okay so you just don’t want people to know the shitty things you do lmao it’s not cause it’s about consent

I don’t know another way to tell Jasiel I don’t want to be his gf or have any of that labor I really just want to keep fucking in a respectable manner lmao why is that so much to ask for in a man

I made a playlist in Spotify for this dude I’m seeing so he could listen to music I thought he’d like and honestly this playlist is bumpin and I listen to it way more than he ever does but it’s fine not everything’s meant to last and at least the sex is good

I’ve never wanted to jump anyone’s bones as much as Jasiel omg like is this what having really good sex is like omg praise Jesus