There is something so vulnerable and pure about watching the sunrise on a snow covered lake. It makes you feel a new light. Much different from the darkness that swallows you whole at night. My heart aches no matter what time of day. I crave your blue eyes opening up to me in the stillness of the morning. Your half smile as you say “good morning sweetie” and your arms pulling me closer while we still aren’t fully aware of our surroundings all we see is us.
You don’t realize how much it hurts being alone at night until you are truly alone. When reality sets in and you realize you won’t be woken up to the sound of your car door shutting after you return home to me after a long night at work. Or the sound of your combat boots hitting floor as I ask you in a sleepy voice how your night was. I just lay there still praying to stay in my little day dream for a few minutes more before the morning brings me fully awake and my heart breaks once again. I go thru my day in motions. Because if I think to hard I’ll find myself missing the moments we spent together. The smallest of things that once seemed like nothing now are all I want.
My soul is lost. Because you fed me with the lies that our souls were mates and now I feel like nothing without it’s other half.
My eyes are heavy. For I’ve cried everyday since you left. Tear streaked makeup has become a permanent look amongst my cheeks. My eyes that once saw only love and happiness now fear opening for they don’t want to see the sadness that hangs before them day in and day out.
My hands are confused. They once had so much to hold and now they feel they’ve lost their purpose. They feel empty. Emptiness has become an unavoidable feeling these days.
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