the love i meant to say

Oh, I’m so sorry. I hope your girl comes back to you wholly one day, all in one piece. Memories and everything. And yes, I used to live in France as a little girl. And then we moved here, my Mama’s home. I cannot imagine wanting to leave New York, it’s a beautiful city. I haven’t travelled much, not really. But yes, you don’t seem very lucky… with the accident. That was a joke.

Right now, I can’t support myself financially to do what I want. Plus, there is my Mama, and… one day I will do it. But not today. But if you can write your music, you should share it with the world. That’s your gift!

Can you keep a secret? Do you ever miss France? I mean, that must have been pretty cool, right? It was a good joke. Especially because it was rather accurate.

Oh… oh, I’m so sorry. That sounds truly awful. I’m thankful you can recover some of your memories now. I don’t… what kind of things did you lose? If I can ask that. I hope that’s not rude. But yes, French is wonderful. Minimal French is all you need outside of France, really. If you need it at all. And oh, thank you. It’s really… well, I grew up speaking both. Mostly French, as I said. Also, if you want to write music, you should write music! That sounds like a lovely dream.

Well, that’s the problem with New York. Nobody has a garden. Maybe I could do a park one day, but it seems like only a dream.

Of course you can ask, I don’t mind talking about it. I’m not a 100% sure what I lost, but so far it’s been things that have happened with friends, certain days with my nan, the girl that I was dating... yeah, I forgot her altogether, but she’s coming back to me. Did you used to live in France? I’ve personally never left New York, but it sounds so cool to travel. I do write music, in my spare time, but it’s hard to make a living of it. It’s all about luck, and well... I’m just not that lucky a person. Besides, whilst I do write music, I don’t tend to share it...

You were in an accident? A bad one? I hope not. But yes, I am French. I’ve been speaking English a while though, it was only my Father who was French. But still. It gets confusing. I slip up sometimes, because we spoke French at home. I don’t think you’re ugly… not at all, if that’s not too bold to say so. What’s a step up from technician? What’s more than that?

Landscape architecture. I want to build gardens, and parks. Beautiful ones.

Yup. It was pretty bad... I um- I lost my memories of the past like... five years or so? It’s mostly back now though, but yeah along with my injuries, it was quite bad. French is such a cool language though, my knowledge is just limited to being able to order in a small restaurant or something. Hey, props to you to be able to speak two languages, I barely control one. Why thank you, my mediocre face really appreciates it. Well... I’ve got my own dream, you see. It doesn’t actually contain much technician skills, to be honest. None, if I’m being accurate. I want to write music.

Oh! Well, I suppose it’s not… you know, safe. And that. I can pardon the French, being French myself. But, at the theatre? Are you an actor?

Oh, it’s lovely. I mean… the dream is much different. Well, not much different. Just… bigger. 

I used to think it was all fine, but after getting into a pretty big accident myself... I’m starting to change my mind on that. You’re French? Well now I just feel stupid for saying that. I’m not an actor, no. Who’d want to see this ugly mug on a stage? No no, I’m a technician. Maybe one day I’ll be more than that.

Indeed! But please, let’s forget about it. It’s alright. And something else? Something else like what?

I haven’t got a clue yet. I’m just realizing that being a bikemessenger isn’t a particularly safe occupation, and cab drivers tend to be asshole - pardon my French. Who knows, maybe I’ll look into a more full-time job at the theatre.

The dot dot dots have always felt a little ominous to me… but please, don’t apologise!

That makes more sense. Do you like it?

The internet is a very confusing place. I should have used like a stripe there, or just completed a full sentence.

Oh! I’m sorry. I mistook your pause for bad. Please… pay no attention to me.

Why were you delivering someone else’s parcel? Was this person a friend of yours? You were doing them a favour? 

Oh no, that pause was very strangely placed and I fully understand how it could have thrown you off. Apologies for that.

You… paused a little. Do you not think it’s a good idea? I know Harvey will be bashful at first, but that boy… well, you have to see them together! I know he will be fond of the idea. 

That’s romantic too. You’re like cupid.

Oh no no no, that was a good pause! I definitely think it’s a good idea, especially if it’s something that they both love so much and have in common together. I didn’t mean anything bad by it!

To my understanding, I’m supposed to send a few flowers every day to him, and the boy he loves has picked out all these quotes, from books and such? He likes to read, I forgot to mention he likes to read… and they are attached with a little tag. So every day Harvey wakes up to a flower, and a quote from a book such as Anna Karenina, or Pride and Prejudice, all the great love stories, oui?

It is so romantic! I do not think either of them are at the proposing stage yet, but if they ever were, I would be happy to assist!

Well, I am sure he does not check his blog that much so it is safe to talk about… the boy my best friend loves? He has organised this deeply lovely surprise for him. I get to help, as I am the florist and part of the very sneaky plan. Oh! It’s going to be lovely.

It is honestly the sweetest thing I have ever heard. Can you keep a secret?

Oh, I’m very good at keeping secrets. Well... not always, but overall, yes.