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@mocharialife

none of you in the modern day did anything wrong, it’s mainly content from 2023-2024 that’s bothered me so much. you may think it’s irrational, but i have trouble combatting obsessive negative thoughts and the only way to minimize them is to distance myself from their cause. i’m not naming any names, but many of these thoughts stem from “edgy” papa louie au’s people have made that touch on topics that are very sensitive to me such as abusive parents. a character that means very much to me, who i will also not mention the name of, is a popular subject of this type of treatment. they are like a child to me and i have self projected many things onto them, so in my head, seeing them hurt is the same as seeing myself hurt.

i still love the papa louie franchise, i rediscovered it during a very dark time in my life so it means very much to me. however, when something means a lot to me, i am very selective of the content i consume of it, and seeing upsetting content can trigger obsessive/intrusive thoughts. i have decided to start distancing myself from the community and focusing on things outside of general social media, such as playing animal jam and watching youtube on my computer instead of spending hours scrolling on my phone.

i do not know if i will be active on tumblr at all anymore. i may check my main occasionally, like once or twice a week, but not often.