āI am faithful to you, darling.ā
āI have my body and you have yours.ā
āBelieve it if you can.ā
āSome people donāt understand anything.ā
āNo one wants to know whatās in his head.ā
āIt should be enough. To make something beautiful should be enough. It isnāt. It should be.ā
āLetās kill something.ā
āWhat do you do with a man like that?ā
āWhy take more than we need? Because we can.ā
āYouād break your heart to make it bigger, so why not crack your skull when the mind swells.ā
āWill you defend yourself? From me, I mean.ā
āI prefer to blame others, itās easier.ā
āItās a matter of willpower.ā
āWhat is a ghost? Something dead that seems to be alive. Something dead that doesnāt know itās dead.ā
āYou can try, but we will not remain unscathed.ā
āWhy live a life? Well, why are you asking?ā
āWhen you have nothing to say, set something on fire.ā
āI wanted to explain myself to myself in an understandable way.ā
āI gave shape to my fears and made excuses.ā
āSomethingās not right about what Iām doing but Iām still doing itāliving in the worst parts, ruining myself.ā
āThe enormity of my desire disgusts me.ā
āWant something to chase you? Run.ā
āNever finish a war without starting another.ā
āIf you were walking away, keep walking.ā
āWhy do anything at all? Not how, because hows are easyāseries or sequence, one foot after the otherābut existentially why bother, what does it solve?ā
āWhat is alive and what isnāt and what should we do about it?ā
āThe fear: that nothing survives. The greater fear: that something does.ā
āYou will die in your sleep and leave everything unfinished.ā
āI owe myself nothing.ā
āI like dead things ⦠They cannot hurt me.ā
āThereās not enough room for us to be ourselves.ā
āHistory is painted by the winners.ā
āTrust me, I have things to say.ā
āAccidents never happen when the room is empty.ā
āPeople like to think war means something.ā
āWhat can you learn from your opponent? More than you think.ā
āLove might be the wrong word.ā
āLetās admit, without apology, what we do to each other.ā
āWe know who our enemies are. We know.ā
āThere are many loves but only one war.ā
āCan I tell you something?ā
āThis is not what we meant to be.ā
āRely on one thing too long and when it disappears and you have nothingāwell, thatās just bad planning.ā
āIn the wrong light anyone can look like a darkness.ā
āIt isnāt fair, the depth of my looking, the threat of my looking.ā
āHe is inside his body and I am inside my body and it matters less and less.ā
āHow much can you change and get away with it, before you turn into someone else, before itās some kind of murder?ā
āDifficult, to be confronted with the fact of yourself.ā
āFeels like Iāve always been here.ā
āPeople donāt learn anything unless they are afraid of being left behind.ā
āBeing unreasonable is exciting.ā
āYou have to understand it as it is.ā
āThis is also part of the story: how the story changes. This is something I forgot to tell you.ā
āI think that you might like it here.ā
āI tell you these things because I love you.ā
āItās nothing like I thought it would be and closer to what I meant.ā
āNone of it is real, darling.ā
āI will not cross you and you must move on. There is nothing else.ā
āThere is no way to get to the future from here.ā
āIāll live alone or in between.ā
āEveryone needs a place. It shouldnāt be inside of someone else.ā
āYour body told me in a dream itās never been afraid of anything.ā
āTo hide somewhere is not surrender, it is trickery.ā
āTake it or leave it, and for the most part you take it.ā
āShame comes from vanity.ā
āShame means youāre guilty, like the rest of us, but you think youāre better than we are. Maybe you are.ā
āThere is no new me, there is no old me, thereās just me, the same me, the whole time.ā
āYou want to solve something? Get out of your own way.ā
āI hope itās love. Iām trying really hard to make it love.ā
āI clawed my way into the light but the light is just as scary.ā
āIād rather quit. Iād rather be sad. Itās too much work.ā
āWhat happens when I no longer want to meet you?ā
āNothing lasts forever: we know this.ā
āYou want it to mean something.ā
āWe could pull it apart, spend our whole lives pulling it apart and have no time left to do anything smart with the pieces.ā
āThe sooner you embrace it, the sooner it will leave you.ā
āYou are what you cover up.ā
āI want to give you more but not everything. You donāt need everything.ā
āSomeone has to leave first. This is a very old story. There is no other version of this story.ā
āItās not that late.ā
āAre you dead as well?ā
āI stayed as long as I could.ā
āWhat does all this love amount to?ā