How I Feel, What Am I To Do About It?

Now, out of all the days and weeks and months on this earth, everyone chose now... Weather you were the friend who thought I was just too much to handle. The other friend who thinks they'd be happier if I wasn't with them. The best friend who decided I was at her disposal and well disposed. The boy I didn't mean to like but I did anyway and now I'm realizing why I can't ever catch feelings for anyone ever again because I will ultimately just annoy the shit out of that person. The school work that just keeps getting more and more tough as the days drag on. The acquaintances that think I'm just a little girl who wants to play victim all the time. Or The siblings who just don't want to deal with me anymore. You all have decided that this week was the week you wanted to cut all ties with me. I feel alone, I feel hopeless, I feel stupid for believing I actually was wanted. Or I actually had a chance with that guy. Or I actually was loved. I'm sorry I annoyed all of you, just leave its for the better.