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What I’ll have by 2021 (four months)

🌸 clear skin

🌸 thin thighs

🌸 thigh gap

🌸 97lbs

What’ll need to do

Fast at least 16hrs everyday

Drink 2000ml+ of water everyday 💦

Exercise or dance at least 30min everyday

Stay under 1000 calories everyday, or under 7,000 each week

Stress-exercise instead of stress-eat

Binge K-Dramas instead of binging foods 👩🏼‍💻

Prioritize fruits & veggies 🍓 🥕

Look at thinspo & meanspo often

Visualize

My eyes trailed down her legs. Her socks (they had cute little aliens on them) were barely staying up on her ankles. She wore some pink Adidas Superstars. A good choice. Similar to mine. Of course, I look no where near as good in them.

I go back up to look at the top half of her body. She had an orange Kanken, with a Bunny Plushie hanging out of it. She was wearing an oversized jacket, rolled up to show her delicate wrists.

Then her face. Her sharp jawline, prominent cheek bones, all complimented by her short, curly pink hair.

She looked over to me and smiled. I smiled back, looking away and blushing. I suppose I must have been staring.

I walked past her on the plane. She took up no space on the seat. She was able to sit with her legs crossed up on the seat. With room still available. She looked so delicate. She had only eaten about 3 bites of her airport meal, but there were about 4 empty bottles of water, neatly stacked on the small table.

If I met myself, I would hate me. 

I’m fake, always lying

I’m fat and ugly

I’m not funny; I would bore myself to death

I can’t hold a conversation

I look so mad all the time

I talk either not at all or way too much

I complain all the time 

I am uncomfortable to be around

I make it awkward

I overshare shit I should’ve kept to myself

I’m loud and have an annoying voice

I ruin the mood

I’m an extra, background sort of person

I don’t really add anything to anyone’s lives

I’m a disappointment

I’m frustrating and stubborn

I cause problems

I’m annoying

I’m resentful and envious of others

I get annoyed with other people too quick

I could probably name 100 more things I hate about me, but

my doctor: but you're over weight. have you tried going for a walk?