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i broke down sobbing at midnight alone while standing in my yard surrounded by explosions and the thought that came to mind was... this world was not made for people like me, and theres something beautiful about that.

y'know.. in the most tragic, unsettling, fucked up way.

the thing i told myself before watching the finale was that no matter what happened, aaaaaaall of the magic i felt in that moment........... all the hope, all of what we've done here..... it was all us. i created that magic that i was feeling, and i can create it again. (i know.. magic is kind of a sore spot rn)

what i've settled into the most through this is how desperately the world needs people like us.

i mean jesus Wills line "how obvious?".. how obvious is it how badly they want to tear us down, ruin our holidays, make us believe we'll never be happy, milk us of every last drop of hope until the last frame. LITERALLY they're doing what vecna did. using our fear and hopelessness to fuel their own vision of how they want the world to be. that's the only way their vision works, is if we succumb to despair.

the repercussions of this outcome are so real, and thats the point.

please PLEASE, as we work on processing this shit ass timeline, know that you are the magic that this god forsaken world needs more than ANYTHING. you are so valuable and such a light in this world and so powerful that billions of dollars are spent on trying to make you forget that.

i'm full heartedly concerned about the people in this fandom and i need it to be so clear that the ending of this show does NOT dictate the outcome for you and your life, and what we watched is propaganda. please think on that until it reaches your soul. there is other propaganda in the show, but how byler ended is specifically aimed at knocking queer people down. it was all so very intentional.

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