you've entered laenie's universe

what if I told you that I think of you whenever I see the sunset? would you be able to read in between the lines and notice the words I miss you? what if I told you I save songs that you would love into a playlist? would you be able to notice the way my heart skips a beat for you? what if I told you I watch food channels to learn how to cook meals for you? would you be able to tell my dishes were made with love? what if I told you that I pray to God to bless you with His strength and His patience? would you be able to tell that I care for your safety? what if I told you that your notifications has its very own ringtone? would you know that I love to hear about your days? what if I told you I save the fortunes in the cookies whenever we are together? would you believe in the fate that's meant for us? what if I told you that whenever I am in the store, I would grab one for you to stay hydrated, another for caffeine, and one more for the taste? plus a savory snack that pairs well with sweet treat? would you be able to notice how much I enjoy making you happy?

the very thought of you lingers in my mind. It haunts my soul and wonders into the depths of my heart. the exchange of air from the atmosphere to every part of my well being, I would give you my last dying breath. For what is living.. if it is not with you.

I sincerely believe I’ll never be fully happy.. and if I am for a brief moment, is it pure? why do I no longer connect within the moment? is it grasped tightly where it leaks through the cracks of my palms? Held on so tight it can no longer breathe? dance freely in the air? This habit seems to be contaminated and suffocation is among me. Am I my own worse enemy?

another day. another getaway. another way out. this feeling is overpowering. far prevalent than I thought to endure. a splinter embedded in my heart. a sticky bur randomly found covering the heart of my sleeve. am I my own worse enemy? how does one put themselves in a situation like this one? a stumble upon a gem out of this world and I am weak. a runaway and homesick is what I am. fleeing away from what is in the air and homesick for someone.. if it is even possible to call someone home? I mean they feel like home.. and it has been an awfully long time since a place actually felt like one.

for you? absolutely. in each and every universe. including this one. time and space will not hold a barrier between you and I. for you? without hesitation. there is no doubt in my body.

"they know." "who?" "everyone," replied. I lay there in the grass field looking up at the night sky. my arms stretched back. hands supporting the base of my head for comfort. "how do you know?" "everyone seems to see it. they actually knew before I did. it took me a long time to admit it to myself. I had a pep talk to be completely and utterly honest with how I feel." "and?" "..and they were right." "about?" "me.. being in love." the stars glisten above me. a shooting star scrapes the sky within seconds. I wish nothing but pure happiness in your life.

"it should be this one. I am certain that this is the one. where else can I possibly travel to? the smell.. the energy.. every thing in this place seems far too familiar to brush off. this has to be it. I need to know. the deja vu is constant. the stars are aligned. the sky is awake and it's speaking to me. can it really be? this universe?"