the flashing lights, the big stage, the camera's flashing, people screaming your name, the cheers, the thrill of it all made your entire head spin. you felt the adrenaline the first time you got on stage, it felt like your dreams came true, like the spotlight was made for you, and you were so right. it became a motivation push for you, to push yourself and your dignity, no matter what you just wanted to make people happy, to be relatable to others, and you succeeded so well with it.
there was of course a downside to being the popstar you've come to be, others had their opinions rather it was negative or positive, someone always has some to say. rather you're to sexual, or too loud, or maybe show too much skin, your jokes never land, no matter what people are never satisfied with you or what you do. and it got exhausting to deal with most times, but you didn't let it bother you because at the end of the day, only you know how you are, so one can truly judge you. if they got offended, clearly the shoe fits, am i right?
you knew the downside of debuting your career so it just gave you an ego boost, but the nights you spent crying, wishing things could be differently, having doubts goes unnoticed, at least that's what you think for now. why you may ask? well... you're about to find out.
"baby, did you pay for the reservations at the restaurant yet?" laurence said with a sly smirk on his face, it almost sounded conceding the way he said it, god this man you thought. "laurence, you were supposed to get the reservations, yesterday, i can't do it tonight because i have to film for the music video, i told you that beforehand..." you sighed and rolled your eyes, the last thing you needed was another argument with your boyfriend so you just left it as that.
laurence, or known as Laurence baker is your boyfriend, you guys met at a fashion show during fashion week. you both thought it was love at first sight, you instantly became infatuated with him, you needed to know how he would feel on top of you, how soft his skin is, what his love languages were, you wanted to know everything about this man, and you were going to have him one way or another. but after a year things became so different, it wasn't the same love you romantized, you began to hate the person you were when you were with laurence.
"c'mon baby, i forgot okay? you know how the industry is, your man is a busy man!" he said while stepping closer to you, holding his arms out to single you to hug him. "y/n you really don't have to get upset over this, we can just reschedule i guess" you scoffed out a "unbelievable" and walked out on him, you headed to the kitchen to grab your keys before walking out the door. "i don't even know why i put up with him anymore" you sighed. as soon as you got in the car you turned on the radio. signs by tate mcrae was playing. now you're headed over to the set for the music video.
after some hours you've arrived at the set, you settled in and talked to your team and the camera crew what exactly you had in mind for this project that was in the making.
"you sure this is exactly what you want to do, y/n?" nanami said with concern in his voice, looking at you with nothing but possession in his eyes, in a bodyguard kinda way since he is your security guard and your friend. he's been looking out for you for years now, and he doesn't plan on stopping, in his words you're his favorite headache.
"of course, nana, i'll be fine i promise, besides i gotta keep the viewers on their toes!" you snickered, admiring how the nanami kento is still in protect mode. after some time you and the camera crew decided it was time to get to work, all the background characters had the time of their life being a part of the music video, it took exactly 7 hours, so after a few breaks until you were officially satisfied with this idea you had nanami ride you around back home, you loved it when nana drove you around, it made you feel like a princess, and he also didn't mind if it meant keeping an eye on you.
"this is your stop m'lady, you sure you don't want me to stay the night?" he said with a tiny pout on his lips, he barely showed emotion but with you he's always been sweet, that's how much you mean to him, and thank god that he was such a gentleman.
"yeah, i'm sure nana, you don't always have to be here for me" you say, smiling at him. you got up to open your car door but kento softly but sternly tapped your shoulder, signaling you to sit back down so he could open the door. "i know, but it's my job, and i'd be damned to let something happen to you" he got out the car and headed over to your side and opened the door for you. "at least let me take you to your doorstep, m'lady" and what he said was final because that's exactly what he did. he stayed by until he saw you walk in the house, with a final goodbye you waved at him and closed the door shut.
the first thing you see as soon as you thought you could get some peace, was a fucking mess on the floor, controllers on the ground, dirty shorts across the floor, and dirty dishes that haven't been cleaned in the last 8 hours since you've been gone. god this goddamn manchild.
"you act like a kid even though you stand six foot two." you huffed out, ready to kick this man all the way into next week, i mean who does he think he is? and did he think you were going to be the one to do all the work? "manchild" you grumble. you ended up slapping him out of his sleep because you'd be damned to clean up this hideous of a mess.
"OWWW BABE WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU DO THAT FOR?" he winced, immediately jumping off the couch and laying his palm on the side of his face you slapped him with, rightfully so of course.
"why is this house a mess? i wasn't even gone that long, i expect you to at least have some urgency of being decent to a house you don't pay bills for!" you're extremely annoyed and yelling seems to be the only way to get a man to listen to you these days.
"baby, i'm sorry, i must have lost track of time me and the guys wa-" you cut him off before he could finish his sentence.
"you and the guys, are you serious? you know what, just please clean up, i'm serious laurence, don't even come in my room until this house is back to the way it was!" you stomped out of the living room to head to your room, you slammed the door shut to make a point. after a minute you took a deep breath, you were on the urge of spiraling out so you went to your drawer to put on some comfy clothes, you had on pink victoria secret pajamas and your hair was wrapped up in a bonnet. after getting cozy sat on your bed and scrolled on your Instagram because you couldn't sleep with the way how you were feeling. you scrolled for a bit until you saw a specific post. it was a post of you and laurence, man how things have changed, what happened to us? you thought in your head. guess not all love is forever, huh?
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