it mustāve slipped out
pairing: steve harrington x fem!reader
summary: steve says a different name during sex, reader convinces herself she misheard him, shes insecure, jealous and angry, and after steve jumps after nancy she feels unappreciated and not good enough
warnings: slight smut, MINORS DNI, insecurities, reader is bigger than nancy(body type not specified, just bigger), curse words, some negative self talk?, OH AND I GUESS SPOILER WARNING FOR SEASON 4
type: angst, smut
a/n: this is my first time writing something with smut so i apologise if its shitty, this imagine is kinda similar to my blurb that a lot of people liked, the same idea of being jealous of nancy, but a diff storyline and emotions, also nancy is the first one to jump into the lake, hope you guys enjoy itš
words: about 2k
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Her face was pressed into the silky pillow on the bed. She was slightly losing her vision, her eyes rolling backwards. Two bodies slamming into each other, her moans and his soft breaths were the only sounds that could be heard in Steveās bedroom. His body connecting with hers with each movement of his hips.
āFuckā Steve groaned quietly but she still heard it.
She was taken aback when he pulled his member out of her and flipped her over connecting their lips in a messy kiss. He put himself back inside her swollen pussy, her gasp like music to his ears. With each stroke her body felt even more relaxed than before, if thatās even possible. She could never finish just by being penetrated but she enjoyed that feeling nevertheless. She was mostly focused on his quiet, suppressed moans and occasional curses coming from his mouth. His hot breath against her skin made her shiver.
āHoly shit, Nanceā¦ā
Thatās when her body froze. Nance? At that moment she couldnāt even feel him moving inside her and the sounds he was making sounded like he was behind a wall. His body collapsed against hers when he finished. Steve kissed her cheek and went to the bathroom to dispose of the condom. Meanwhile (Y/n) was staring at the ceiling, million thoughts making circles inside her head. āMaybe he didnāt mean it? Maybe it was a mistake? Maybe he didnāt say it and itās just my imagination playing tricks on me? Maybe I misheard him? Maybeā¦ā
āIs everything okay?ā He asked laying down next to her and covering them with a blanket.
She looked at him without any emotions, she was still numb from what had happened and the only thing she was able to say was a simple āYesā.
āDid I hurt you?ā
āWhat?ā She asked confused. Maybe he did say it? Maybe he is apologising?
āWere my movements too hard for you? Or maybe the speed was too fast?ā
Oh.
āNo, no. It was⦠fine.ā
āOkay, amazing. Come here I wanna cuddle with you.ā
She slowly put her arm around his chest and laid her head there too. After a couple minutes of complete silence she was convinced that she had misheard him before. But she still decided to leave even if she was supposed to stay with him that night.
āUm Steve, I just.. I just remembered that my.. um.. my mom! Yeah, she needed some help with the um⦠her work project and she asked me to go home earlier tonight.ā
āBut you were supposed to stay the night? Is it really that important? We finally got some quality time together and you know my parents are coming back tomorrow, do you really have to go?ā
āYes, she⦠she actually needs it for tomorrow thatās why itās so um.. urgent.ā
Steve nodded his head and got out of bed to hand her the clothes scattered on the floor. (Y/n) quickly put on her dress, grabbed her backpack and headed downstairs.
āSo no goodbye kiss then?ā She heard him yelling from his room.
āSorry, I forgot.ā (Y/n) run up to Steve to give him a quick peck on the lips.
When she got home the memory of him saying that name was replaying in her head. She went into her room and sat down on her bed. Her own reflection staring at her from the other corner of the room. After throwing her clothes into a basket she came up to the mirror to look at herself. She saw her insecurities. She wasnāt perfect. Technically no one was, but all the girls she saw at the pool were much skinnier than her. Nancy Wheeler was skinnier than her. She sighed and opened the drawer to put on a shirt and some pants. Right before she fell asleep she was analysing in what ways Nancy was better than her. They had many similar qualities, they were both intelligent, ambitious and would always protect their loved ones. The main difference between them was their size. āMaybe thatās why he said it? Or maybe he didnāt? But if he did, maybe he was imagining her instead of me because Iām notā¦skinny enough?ā
The next day she went to the shop where Steve worked in hopes to talk to Robin. She knew when he started his shift and made sure she came after that. Robin was looking at some kind of magazine, turning pages and raising her eyebrows, her head resting on her hand.
āRobin? Can we talk?ā
She looked up at (Y/n) surprised and looked around the shop.
āIf youāre looking for Harrington, he left like 10 minutes ago, Iām sorry. BUT! If youāre here to pick a movie I would be honoured to assist you.ā She smiled.
āNo, um, Iām not here to pick a movie and as for Steve itās⦠itās complicated. I wanted to talk to you, in private. Itās important and I have no one else to talk to aboutā¦ā an old lady entered the shop āā¦this thing I want to talk about.ā
āOkay, go to the staff room, Iāll take care of the customer and then weāll talk. Just give me a minute.ā She turned around and greeted the elderly woman.
(Y/n) went into the staff room and took a seat on a worn out chair placed against the scraped walls. Turning her ring in her fingers she thought about why she even came here. She didnāt even know if what she heard was right. This was stupid, she got up to leave but Robin opened the door at the same time.
āWhatās up? You okay?ā
āThis is stupid.ā
āHuh? What is?ā
āThe reason I came here. Iām not even sure if I heard things right and Iām just so confused and I donāt know what to do.ā
āOkay, okay, slow down, youāre not making any sense right nowā
(Y/n) sighed and placed her palm on her forehead. She tucked a loose strand of hair behind her ear and looked at Robin.
āI think that⦠Iām not sure but I think Steve said Nancyās name yesterday when we⦠whenā¦ā she swallowed the thick saliva inside her throat āwhen we were having sex.ā
āWhat the fuck? Are you sure?ā
āThatās the thing, Iām NOT. But l think itās very possible. I was focused on his⦠sounds? And his mouth was so close to my ear. I donāt know what to think anymore. Maybe I misheard it or something.ā
āShit.ā Robin took a seat in the chair that (Y/n) had sat in before. āWell ifā¦if he was saying that so close to your ear⦠shit. I donāt think that you misheard it. Iām sorry.ā
āYou donāt have anything to be sorry for. I just needed to talk to someone and tell me that Iām not crazyā
āI know. I know but⦠UGH. This is such a shitty situation.ā Robin stood up. āYou know that if youāll ever need anything, Iām here. Oh, and thank you for trusting me enough to talk about⦠that. I want to punch this idiot so bad right now.ā
(Y/n) lifted the corner of her lips and hugged the girl.
āRobin! Where are you?!ā
The girls broke out of the hug quickly and looked at each other.
āFuck, thatās Steve.ā Robin whispered.
āWhy is he here? He finished his shift for today! I checked his working hours like.. 5 times!ā (Y/n) raised her voice.
āJust stay calm and come with me, Iāll come up with an excuse.ā She took (Y/n)ās hand into her own and opened the door. āDingus! What are you doing here?ā
āNancy called and they need our help with Eddie, I drove to (Y/n)ās house but sheā¦ā he locked eyes with his girlfriend. ā..wasnāt there. What? Why are you HERE?ā
āShe wanted to visit you! But she was late, you know, traffic.ā Robin smiled awkwardly.
āTraffic? In Hawkins?ā he crossed his arms.
āYeah! It doesnāt happen often but it happens!ā
āSure.ā He nodded his head slowly. āWe better get going if we donāt want them to go without us.ā
They both followed him out of the store and Robin quickly locked the door after she had changed the sign to āclosedā. The ride was mostly quiet and if someone decided to talk it was Steve and Robin. (Y/n) didnāt want to interrupt their conversations, and actually after she thought about it, she didnāt want to talk at all. When they met up with the rest of the group she kept her eyes glued to Nancy and Steve. Seeing them together made her nauseous and her stomach felt like it was twisting. After some time she found herself stuck on a boat looking for a stupid gate. The darkness was surrounding them, she couldnāt see much and the flashlights werenāt as bright as she thought they would be. Then, out of nowhere, Dustinās compass started to freak out even more than before.
āItās the gate.ā Nancy said.
Everyone was quiet and because of that, she continued.
āIāll go down to see if itās really there, wait here.ā
No one objected to her. She took off her sweater which left her dressed in a thin tank-top. (Y/n) looked at Steve who was staring at her figure amused.
Iām sorry I canāt look like her. She thought. Her eyes following Nancy when she disappeared under the surface. Robin observed the scene in front of her, her heart hurt for (Y/n), she didnāt deserve it. She wanted to tell Steve right now that what heās doing is wrong, but she had no place to talk, this wasnāt her relationship. A minute passed and Nancy emerged from the water.
āI found it.ā Breathing heavily she grasped the edge of the boat with both of her hands.
Suddenly, she got pulled under the water, the thing that grabbed her didnāt even give her time to take a breath.
āNancy!ā everyone yelled and got closer to the edge. Steve looked at everyone and then his eyes focused on the dark waves.
āStay here.ā He said jumping into the water. Jumping after her.
(Y/n) looked at Robin, the pain in her chest growing. She supressed the feeling and taking a deep breath she dived after him. She wasnāt the best at swimming, she never really wanted to swim and when they had went to the pool, she was always sitting in the shade of the umbrella. She tried her best to catch up to Steve but she couldnāt even see him. Her vision was blurred but among this darkness, a red spot stood out to her. She swam towards it, the air in her lungs almost at its end. She reached for the gate and it threw her into the Upside Down. Gasping for air (Y/n) looked around and when she saw her boyfriend she ran towards him, grabbing a wooden oar she helped him get the monsters off of Nancy. She was mad at him, mad at her, jealous, but she couldnāt let her die, right? She wasnāt a bad person. Robin and Eddie quickly joined them and then the whole group ran away to hide somewhere. When they found the perfect spot Nancy slid down the slippery rock groaning in pain. Steve was quick to catch her, to talk to her, to help, but he didnāt have anything that would stop the bleeding. (Y/n) sighed and ripped her flannel apart. She came up to them and looked at Nancy.
āMay I?ā she asked and Nancy softly nodded.
(Y/n) wrapped the material around her abdomen, her tiny, perfect waist and stomach. Nancy thanked her and then she was focused on Steve again.
āYouāre welcome.ā (Y/n) sighed walking away.
She couldnāt look at them anymore. Seeing that he is still in love with Nancy broke her heart into tiny pieces. She could tell from the way he looked at her that his love was still present, it really never went away. Sure, their relationship wasnāt perfect, but Nancy has always been perfect to him. And with that poor (Y/n) sat down convinced that she will never be perfect to him. She will never be like Nancy is in Steveās eyes. He will never look at her like that.















