LoveAutumnDream

I don't think I'm in a good head space. I feel darkness and it's looking cloudy. I see the light but it isn't as bright as it once was. I thought I was there. You know the place filled with a bit more light however I can't see. I'm hurt and broken. Rejection and regret is taking over my mind. Sometimes you need to hear the words keep going and you tell yourself but you're awaiting for someone to do so. I want peace of mind. I want new beginnings and security. I want to provide again. I'm feeling helpless.

Sitting at a bar eating and thinking about my daughter. I'm feeling quite empty although it's been a day since I heard her voice. It drives and motivates me. Most of all it gives me life. She's everything. She's me. All of me. She knows there is nothing that can break or tear are love apart. But right now I'm just broken. Just want tomorrow here already. To run and hug her. To love and feel her. To smile and laugh. Until tomorrow I'll be broken and lost

I can honestly say I tried...can't say that I didn't but I've tried since I known. I've allowed it to take control over me at times and I've given it majority of my energy. I watched as I almost fell apart. But I fell and got back up. I've grown and I've become stronger and better. I do what's BEST for my daughter at all times. Because I want what's best.

A lot of things have crossed my mind. Well they often cross my mind but I just tend to wonder and not manifest into what I want. We all want many things in life, but often we speak on it and don't act on it. I want to be someone's wife some day. I imagined having a family and a husband by now. However God has other plans for me. He's blessed me with a beautiful baby girl. Whom I love with all my heart. She's taught me several things about what life is and what we can actually make of it. Granted I do pray that God provides me with a loving man. A strong, handsome, loving, intellectual, god fearing man who is willing to grow throughout the years by my side as I watch my daughter reach certain points and place of her life. I truly hope and pray my father is able to walk me down the aisle. My daughter by my side cheering me on. I speak life over the great man that shall come into my life and be a light. I welcome him with open arms and unconditional love. I pray for him day in & day out.

Journal. Stress Reliever.

Tons of things will come into play and try to distract you. However DON’T lose your complete FOCUS. Your focus has a purpose. You are destined to fulfill that purpose. Distractions will come, obstacles will arise and so much more. But don’t let that stop you. Let God do his work and allow him to lead you. God will NEVER steer you in the wrong direction. There is ALWAYS light within darkness. Don't ever hesitate to speak or talk to God. He will ALWAYS be there. Begin your day with GOD. Give Praise. Give Thanks. Focus. Speak Life Into Existence

I don't think we are aware of the effects of mental illness. We live daily and ignore the side effects. I have been battling depression for almost 10 years. I have had so many mixed emotions while battling it over the year. I want the battle to end, but I don't want to allow it to defeat me. Most of us allow depression to defeat us. I want to be the victor and not the victim. I want to be able to help others along with myself. I want people to know that you're not alone.

Listen to the friend zone podcast and @heyfranhey spoke about goals and writing them and giving them life. I'm embarking a journey to move forward and towards what's mine.

I pray that people are given what they NEED, rather than what they want... We constantly are worried about what we want instead of being thankful for the things God provides us with on a daily basis. Obviously the things that he constantly gives out is what we need. However if we want something we do what we want

Good morning. First I want to THANK GOD for waking me and my daughter up on this morning along with all others that were able to awaken and see this day. As I’m thankful for the gift of life, someone in my family lost their life today. My heart is broken and I’m hurting. Of course I’m needing and wanting prayer. I’m asking the lord to comfort and protect my family during this time of need. That he continues to get us through all obstacles. That he wraps his arms around us and let us know that he is here for us always no matter what the circumstances are. I find it intriguing that yesterday God came to me telling me to start a prayer challenge and knowing that we all need it. He knew in particular that it would be needed today. However I know many others need prayer just as badly as I do because they’re going through difficult times. Post your prayers so that I can lift you up in your prayer. No matter your prayer may be know that God will hear it and will answer it. I will be keeping y'all lifted and praying that your day is filled with nothing but love and blessings. Much love and blessings 😘🙏🏾 Kia

PRAYERS UP 🙏🏾