Lack of Passion is Fatal

Just as I had been looking back at that past version of myself, I now stood and recollected the girl at the phony Starbucks. Worried about whether or not she would ever achieve her wild dreams. Worried about the responsibilities at work and school. I wish I could go to her and show her a glimpse of the future I am living now. A life of prosperity in the hills of California. A life filled with friends, family and love. A life filled with adventure, stability and abundance. I wish I could tell her to take a breather. That it was okay to relax and enjoy the process that will, without any doubts, bring the desired result. I so deeply wish, I could go back and comfort her so that she could regain her peace of mind and focus on being present in that moment. To tell her to embrace the moment for what it was, whether it be stress, happiness, or sadness. To tell her that it would be all worth it in the end. That her life would yield her desired results and bring more than she ever thought possible.

To my friend, my partner, my lover. You might feel lonely in your journey, pursuing your education, building your career, and expanding your horizons. You ask yourself if you’ll ever find someone you can connect with, someone who will understand you without words, someone who’s goals will be the same as yours. I am here, and one day, we will find each other. We’re both working hard, pouring knowledge into our minds, pursuing our careers, and building ourselves up so that we can meet, we can share those experiences. I catch myself thinking about you sometimes, I wonder if you’re as addicted to the gym as I am, I wonder what you studied in college, I think about what book you’re reading. I wonder about you, and I’m excited to get to know you. Until then, we have to bear this journey by ourselves, we haven’t met yet, because we’re not ready for each other. But when we do meet, it will be extraordinary, and all the sacrifices we’ve made will be worth it. 

Embrace the fact that you are a person, just like any other human that you see. Just like them, you also have weird feet, funny quirks, and are susceptible to life’s hardships. You cannot go chasing for life’s riches thinking that its struggles will not affect you. Embrace the emotions, both the good and bad, make yourself vulnerable. Glow and radiate love to people and fear not their judgement. Don’t bite back the compliments, but instead offer them without restraint. Think consciously about the person you want to become, and then without hesitation craft your life on that foundation.

Evaluated my consciousness. My being, my mind, my existence has been operating on autopilot for a prolonged period of time, and I can’t seem to override the system. Am I not living the life I set out to? Am I not surrounded by opportunity? By love? By growth? M dreams have, quite literally, manifested into my reality and yet I have disattached myself from it. Why can’t I enjoy the ride instead of looking at the next destination, in the hope of finding happiness? Why can’t I notice that happiness has already filled my life, sat on my shoulder, and is waiting to be noticed? Don’t i realize that it has been with me throughout all the periods of my life? I just have never taken advantage of it, never truly let myself believe and enjoy its presence. It’s here, with me, just waiting for my awareness.