i (WE) love blade but frankly? we need more of genderbend blade. why? donât ask me. ask my inner demons who crave fem blade bc i have an entire gallery in my album dedicated to genderbent hsr char and femlock.
so genderbent!blade x gn!reader headcanons. letâs get moving people. if you wanna read this as just a normal blade x gn!reader but swapping the fem prns with masc, thatâs fine by me idc.
oh my gosh. blade who literally just shows up at your house with blood all over herselfâa mix of her own and another personâsâand she just stares at you like a wet cat. she has that âlet me inâ stare in her eyes, but she doesnât enter unless you directly let her enter. itâs genuinely like sheâs some kind of a vampire.
blade who doesnât like physical touch at all but lets your initiate the slightest and i mean slightest bits of physical touch. by slight i mean like maybe hold her pinky if you get lucky. she immediately recoils from hand holding and sits on the far right of the couch whenever you wanna get cuddly. itâs heartbreaking, but itâs her boundaries. she doesnât hate you; she just extremely gets uncomfortable from physical touch so she strictly avoids it.
blade who, after getting half mangled, just shows up at your house and asks if she can take a bath. she doesnât head back to the stellaron hunters; she only goes to you. sometimes, she lets you help her scrub her back. sometimes youâre just blushing and trying to be respectfully looking away, but blade herself is just staring into the water and enjoying the sensation. it feels like a massage almost. your hands are soft and gentle, almost like youâre afraid to break blade, which she finds funny because i mean itâs blade. have you seen and heard her? she refuses all physical touch except for this intimate moment where she lets you gently touch her skin. you usually just leave a towel and hop out whenever youâre done, but sometimes, she makes you stay and you two just stare at each other awkwardly.
blade who doesnât enjoy small talk. she likes quality time and being in your presence. she likes just sitting around you, but as soon as you open your mouth to say something, she glares at you and almost mouths âshut up.â you just cower down and she usually doesnât care, but if you genuinely look sad, sheâll just let you talk, but she wonât probably be listening.
blade who doesnât let you treat her wounds because sheâs just simply too avoidant of that intimacy. but if you insist, sheâll just sit there without a word and you would be bandaging up whatever wounds youâve got there. you will be humming to yourself, awkwardly laughing whenever blade grumbles about it, and pat her leg when itâs all treated. her eyes are dull, but they soften ever so slightly whenever you do bandage her.
honestly blade who doesnât even realize you two are dating. she has been seeing this entire ordeal as the most intense platonic relationship ever. she never clarified that this was a romantic thing. she has perplexed emotions. she doesnât know whether she actually likes you or if this is just a situationship because she is so fucked up after trying to die for years. meanwhile youâre here thinking that blade is playing with your feelings and that youâre gonna be dumped soon (surprisingly youâre not).
blade who refuses to wear a dress at all costs and just hisses whenever you hold up matching outfits (dresses if youâre both girls, maybe a dress and suit if you go masc/gn). she might reluctantly wear it and it actually fits her nicely, but then she takes it off the next second. she says she doesnât like the feeling of air against her bare skin on her legs.
blade who is constantly mistaken as a man every time you two are together in a public space (which is extremely rare) because she keeps dressing like either a kidnapper, a thug, or just a warrior. you donât mind it, but she looks like she kidnapped you and youâre being held hostage.
blade who is still frankly slightly taller than you even as a woman bc blade. a slightly taller girlfriend and whenever you wanna give her affection or talk to her, you need to sit on tables or counters and frankly, she finds that amusing. the first time you asked for a kiss and she slightly nodded (hoping that you wouldnât notice), you go on your tippy toes and try to kiss her, but then you trip and you just fall face flat ON her. sheâs glaring at you while youâre blushing furiously in embarrassment as in âwhy me.â you two did share a kiss at some point, just that the first attempt went horribly.
blade who has to fall victim to any of your hobbies whenever she gets free time. you can be making flower crowns and putting them on her head and sheâs just sighing, but whenever you do a stupid grin, sheâs suppressing a soft look. she likes seeing you smile; she never admits it though.
blade who sees you fallen asleep on your couch while waiting for her and just sighs as she walks over, picks you up by slinging you over her shoulder, and just plops you down on your bed. she wants to just leave, but subconsciously, she drapes the blanket over you and even closes all windows before leaving. the post-tucking-in-partner clarity hits her hard and she questions what the fuck sheâs doing instead of getting revenge.
blade who just nods whenever you smile and wave at her while saying âi love you.â she doesnât know what to say back and just doesnât say anything back. she acknowledges it though. she never just ignores it.
you know the i love my wife meme?
this but youâre red, screaming that with your heart out, and blade is blue, but instead of being giddy, sheâs staring down in embarrassment.
she loves you. itâs perplexing and a mix of emotions, but she surprisingly does love you. if you met her in different circumstances, she wouldâve probably been more open with it, but unfortunately, not in this life. yeah.