I think too much

Or is it in the mind?

I get a new start, hopefully things get good .

Hopefully my mind won't continue to be so loud.

Hopefully I'll no longer be so misunderstood.

Hopefully I can make them all proud

I still feel alone in crowded rooms

Without you by my side.

I wonder if this is how Jupiter feels with it's many moons,

Like your being pulled under by a tide.

You said my kisses were like butterscotch.

So I gave them all to you,

Hoping to keep your love,

But alas' it was all in vain

You gave me all your lemon drop kisses,

So bitter that my lips puckered.

You gave me lemon drop lies

Disguised with a sweet glaze

You were all my summer days,

Basking in the sun,

You were all my winter nights

Cuddled up by the fire.

You were all my seasons,

But then you left without any reasons.

If people were weather,

You'd be a calm, lulling rain.

Singing me a lullaby.

And I'd be a blizzard,

Messy and all over the place,

Something people want to avoid.

It feels like I'm running in a circle,

Trying to find myself in this endless maze.

I'm starting to think the run is eternal.

Nonetheless, I'll continue to run in a daze.

I wonder if I ever cross your mind

Because you always cross mine.

When I'm stuck in my mind, your the one I find,

And if I don't cross your mind, I guess that's fine.

You don't have to be in water to drown,

You can drown in your mind,

You can drown in a feeling,

You can drown in eyes,

I think you could drown in anything.

You left me,

And now I'm stuck missing you.

So I'll count to three,

And hope to not feel so blue

My life is predictable, it's the same thing every day,

I am in desperate need for a change in scenery.

I'm getting tired of living in this dull shade of gray.

I got lost among the stars with you.

We got lost in a sky the deepest blue.

We were lost in the richest hue.

You and I were an inseparable crew

I'm still lost among the stars, but now without you,

Whatever happend to our inseparable crew of two?

One year older; closer to death

One years worth of wasted breath

I can't sleep at night,

Cuz' it's loud in my mind.

I toss from left to right,

Knowing sleep is something I'll never find

So many people cover up, saying they’re okay,

Hiding behind a fake smile.

Sometimes it’s because they don’t know what else to say.

And sometimes it’s just what they’ve done for awhile 

I wish I would've seen through your disguise.

I wish I'd captured all your lies,

You tried to kiss them away

To keep all my fears at bay.

But I tasted the bitterness on your lips,

Tasting of lemon and over-salted chips