ryo's 3dgene life

ngl i felt fine swimming last night, i had a coffee before i left home and my legs were feeling ok. conc- on swimming days, dont go fully f4$53d, js 9mad. you feel fine as long as you eat smth two or three hours before and have caffeine before, ngl i might see if i can get caffeine tablets bc i dont like the way coffee sits in my throat whilst i swim.

i feel so shitty. i have a headache and feel drowsy, i wasnt even hungry. like if i ate because i was hungry, that's understandable but eating because of emotions is the worst. i didnt need food. jtjfjncjvjgn im crashing out so hard rn and its taking everything in me to not cvt or 074g3. i could have just not eaten and i would have felt fine. i didnt need it

and yet i dont do anything but stuff my face. i really want to get rid of it all. i wish i could 074g3 it rn. my stomach feels horrible and i can feel the food in my throat. i wish i didnt eat any of that. i cant even say anything, it was a choice to eat. i couldve stopped at any point. i couldve not consumed it and yet i chose to anyways. i dont want it enough, not if i still follow my fat people habits. i will continue to be a turd of lard until i stop. my ribs will continue to be under a thick layer of subcutaneous fat unless i do something about it. i wish i could barf it out but i promised i wouldnt i hate it i hate it so much

edit: instead of eating the chocolate i have now eaten four fucking biscuits and a whole bucket of cereal. k1|| me. i hate this. I actually was doing so well today.

ate this, a nectarine and an apple today. ive been running and have already hit 12k steps (it was sports day, guess who placed first in 800, 1500 and the relay hehe)

62.05kg this morning