It's been a while since I've been on my tumblr. Months to be exact. And life has majorly changed since I've been on. Since I was last on I went through the worst break up my heart has probably gone through. I dated a woman who I gave my all to for 4 years move out and leave me. It destroyed me and consumed my thoughts and life for a month. I did questionable things i wish I didn't do. It changed my life/me entirely. I started drinking a lot. I started smoking weed a lot more. I signed up on gay dating sites, started talking to females. Went to Long Beach Pride with some Best Buy hoe who used me pretty much for my money. And after Long Beach Pride she hit on my best friend. I wish I wasn't so dumb and gullible. I In the process I lost my so called best friend who opened her mouth about all my secrets and everything I did AFTER my ex to MY ex. Now they're best friends. That's the golden part. A month after this heartbreak though I started to hang with my neighbor who was also a stoner like me. He knew what had happened and I gotta give it to him, he's been the best from the beginning. I hit him up one night drunk trying to see him but his respectful ass told me to wait until I was sober and no. Winning right there already. He took the time to hang and get to know me. We'd sit outside till 3,4, sometimes even 5 am talking. And then he kissed me. He told me he was going to love me and give me everything my past didn't. I was scared. I had dated girls since I was 15 years old. It was a few days after my 23rd birthday. But I believed in his words and it was the best decision I've made. That was back in May. It's now September. I guess the point of my post is to do an update for whoever comes across my tumblr. I went back and read my old posts and they are so depressing. I was in the lowest place possible then. But Dante who is the lucky guy pulled me from that dark place is now I'm realizing the best blessing I could ever hope for. I'm a different person now, shit even lonelier (friends) BUT all the pain was worth it. Relationships and friendships not working out led me to the healthiest relationship I could've ever dreamed for. Don't give up! Time does heal.