花 Hana

Hey! I forgot my password to tumblr and also my password for my email that i signed up with on tumblr so now i only have the app but its on my old phone amd i dont know how to get it back:/ Thats why ive been MIA. Hope youre all well ♡

Hey everybody!♡ Hope everyone is in good health♡

I have a check-up tomorrow. I know its just a check-up and its no big deal really but the fear and the memories are still there and even if im considered “cancer-free” i dont think ill ever be free from it. Its still there. In my heart. In my mind.

I have an eyeinfection so my sister tells her 6y/o not to touch me (as a joke) and he goes "eww cancer" and even though he's a kid and doesnt understand it still hurts. I started to cry. Not only cause of his words but for the memories thats coming back. My memories are burried under a thin line of "bravery and smiles". when i speak about it its the same old story im telling. Without the feelings i had and the really difficult memories, only about the event. Ive burried the true feelings but it's easily opened and relived.