Struggling to be free

Afternoon tea is a apple. #Apple #afternoontea #intake

Sneaky pic of dinner feel like a 🐘 #inpatient #intake #dinner

An amazing book by @herfreedomtree love you to the moon and back sweet Ash 😘 #books #inpatient #distractions #friends

Looking so pale and tired. It's not even been a week of severe restriction. I'm trying so hard to try and eat.m, and my dr is being so patient with me. My body is getting weaker and I find it so ridiculous when I'm still a healthy bmi

Not even a week of restriction and I already look dead. In trying so hard to build myself up to quarters but I'm just so terrified. My dr is lovely she's being so patient with me, and she's doing her best to help. One day at a time 😰 #sad #hollywoodclinic #psychiatrist #anorexia

I was in emergency on Saturday night, and then they transferred me to the clinic on the eating disorders program. But I'm under a different doctor now :) im struggling really badly but I'll be ok.

Managed a few bites of carrot at dinner, and the bitch in my head is going crazy. I can't do this. I just want them to Let me starve. As soon as I took those bites I felt like I'd failed. My head is scaring me I've never been able to fast for two and a half days. What's happening to me? #intake #inpatient

Back in prison 😰 haven't managed any intake at all, and I'm sure the others think I'm stupid because I'm a 🐷. Struggling, and suicidal 😰 #inpatient #eatingdisorder

Katie Perry VIP pre-show #prismaticvip #katieperry

A big THANKYOU to this amazing girl @ajourneytoawesome. She really is a life saver, tommorow I am getting a refferal to a new psych. Wish me luck 😄 #psychiatrist #appointment #shoutout #thankyou

Trying quorn meatballs today 😊 with a side of maple veggies 🙊 #quorn #veggies #maplesyrup #dinner #intake

Kind of random but veggies with salt and maple syrup is amazing 😍😍 #lunch #intake #veggies #maplesyrup

Lunch is slim pasta with lots of cheese 😄. #lunch #intake #slimpasta

My baby is ready for bed. #cats #bedtime #mybaby

Lunch today is quorn, corn and water chestnuts 👌 #intake #lunch #quorn