When you lose touch with inner stillness, you lose touch with who you are. When you lose touch with who you are, you become lost in the world. Instead of walking with ease and spontaneity, you seek validation in every experience. The stillness of who you are leads you past name and form. 

A passing cloud obscures simple presence. Why trouble yourself with it?

And how horribly easy it is to be hurt. I am being hurt all day, & hurt by the tiniest & most subtle things. So on goes the everyday armour, and the self, even the wounded self, is hidden from so many.

MERCURY SQUARE PLUTO 

I feel empty, deficient, lost. But I allow this and refuse to manipulate events. There is no compulsion to run or hide. This is a hero’s attitude. When the meaningless is surrendered there is space for grace to alight. 

I see that you are going through a rough patch, some doubt, instability, as if you think you might have a deficit here and there. Of course, it's fascinating to explore the psychological realms, but for now, I urge you not to read anything into your ill feelings. Simply allow them without adding needless stories; no need to paint legs on a snake. By simply allowing and not reacting, you create a space of awareness around them. As the space becomes calm and still, the feelings lose power and you regain a sense of stability. As you see, difficult feelings can teach you who you are and who you are not. You come to see them simply as a temporary, conditioned energy movement within you. And actually, they are not "yours" but conditions of the human mind affected by innumerous factors. Although you should never discount or dismiss the reality of what is temporary, either in yourself or others, you nevertheless come to see that you are ultimately the knowing, not the temporary condition.

The key is to stay connected with your inner body - to feel it. Directing consciousness to it is akin to increasing a flow of electricity that activates a sense of stability and centeredness. This is a transformative process. There is a diminishment of anxious, fearful impulses while seemingly attracting open, positive circumstances.