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Been awhile since my last post. Our relationship is still going well, and I feel like were getting closer all the time, which is great. My heart still speeds up when we kiss and it makes me all happy. My birthday was this past weekend and he said he loved me directly for the first time, he’s said it indirectly before and it makes me all giddy and such afterwards when I’m by myself lol But I got to say that I loved him for the first time. I felt a bit shy but it wasn’t that hard to say after he said it directly first. Ugh hes just so sweet sometimes, and I find him waay to cute at times like when he gets excited about things and is all overly happy and full of energy. Sorry just being all fangirl giddy about him ^^; He did get a bit grumpy when we were drinking the night of my birthday but I think it was probably just cause he drank a lot and I think I made a joke when he said he was leaving or something like that and said “Oh its fine I’ll just talk to my ex” I did shed a few tears cause he was being more standoff ish and I was a bit drunk too but I cry easily sometimes when I know that no one will see me, which I didn’t tell him I cried a bit, but I’m just real emotional sometimes. Like when he was at his parents still and he told me to come over and fell asleep and I was outside for over a half hour, I cried a lot and was tipsy. Didn’t mention I cried then either to him, and that time was a lot more >> Ugh Its awful how emotional I am on the inside sometimes .-. I’m slowly adjusting to me and my ex talking less, I still miss him sometimes but that’s expected with our 10 years of talking, at least we are still able to be friends and I can still talk to him about anything when we talk.I still have a few romance songs that still make me think of him. But well when I love someone I don’t just stop… I still love my ex and probably always will in some way. Doesn’t mean I wanna go back to him or anything like that… I’ll just probably always care about him and want whats best for him… I’m sure I’ll always love my current boyfriend too if all failed… Its just how I am.

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