This is me

We parted ways for the best. I wasnt 100% in anymore and he knew it. This was a while ago now. I've moved on. There is an incredible man. Here's the kicker.....its a long distance relationship.

We were having sex and he said it. at first I thought I was hearing things. Then I thought he was lying I asked him to say it again and he did. I smiled and said that I loved him too. In that moment we froze and smiled.

I'm not well mentally and it plays on how I think. He's nothing but good to me and in the past I've broken his heart and trust. It plays on my mind a lot like why would he want to be with me after everything I have done to him. I told him about my worries he replied with "We've known each other for how long? Despite our ups and downs I'm still here." It means a lot but because of the way he is he can't say that he loves me and I think that's where my doubts come from. I know he loves me he shows me all the time buys me little gifts looks after me when I'm not myself, but I just crave the words for reassurance but I know it's a big step for him.

Never give up on what you love. Nearly 3 years and have proven to C that I can be trusted and that I love him. It's taken me a long time but it gave me time to work on myself and figure out who I really am. We've been best friends for years. He makes me smile and laugh. I'm head over heels in love with him. We realised that life wants us together because no matter what happens we always find a way back to each other.

My heart can't take this 😍

This morning he said that what he said wasn't bullshit and that he meant it ❤