yeagerist and light yagami apologist

where the fuck is my dashboard that shows my interactions and engagement the fuck

i'm back.

i need a journal. this blog isn't cutting it

boooks which i’ve finished so far:

culpa mia (OMFG dont get me started on this one) looking for alaska haunting adeline the hating game

I. LOVE. THIS. SHOW. OMFG

okay so i’m not really all that into sports animes besides a select few because they start to feel really repetitive. i’ve watched free! iwatobi swim club and that’s about it. for some reason i was intrigued by this show and also because of the fact that i finished naruto and needed another show to watch on the plane ride home (it has to be on netflix so rip)

there’s actually so much backstory and you’re always trying to figure it out, the writers only let you in on piece by piece, which i like. you see how characters act toward each other and you’re left wondering if it’s because they have some kind of history.

i love the translation of the title of the show being “the basketball which kuroko plays:”

this show actually has good plot lines and i feel like 

okay tbh some points are unrealisitic, hella, but it’s an anime, so when has anything ever been realisitic. if that’s what i wanted, then i would just watch real basketball

i fucking love kuroko and kagami. oh my god. their relationship is so good. like i just love them so much. i want to wrap them up like a present and carry them around in my pocket. 

the generation of miracles. this is really good lore and backstory. i still want to know more about why kuroko ended up at a shitty school though. i just met the character aoimine and I LOVE HIM SO MUCH AND HE’S SO GOOD! HE’S KAGAMI MEGA RIVAL!!! i cant wait to see kagami finally beat him later on. IT’S SO GOOD!

i can;t wait to watch the movies too bc the animation looks soooooo much better in the movies. 

TRIGGER WARNING FOR ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING AND SPOILER WARNING TOO

WHAT THE FUCK IS THE BOOK

I READ 500 PAGES IN 24 HOURS

on my 3 week summer I have already finished 2 books and that is more than the entire year.

So far, I have read Looking for Alaska by John Green and The Hating Game by Sally Thorne (I HATE BOTH OF THESE BOOKS, BUT ESPECIALLY THE HATING GAME)

my next read is The Last Anniversary by Liane Moriarty ( i fucking love her)

help and im on episode 85 of naruto im doing so well😍😍

but rip i have to take my cognitive nremt exam (I passed my psychomotor on the first try!) and i havent studied yet so rippppppp

sorry for babbling this page is basically my diary HAHAHAH

oh also i have taken it upon me to become a tik tok/instagram editor and have made my (not first) first edit about sasuke uchiha (are we surprised) to the song dancer in the dark because i requested someone to make it and they never did (rolls eyes). so i took the liberty upon myself and i’m pretty proud. i used the capcut desktop version and i found some sick twixtor clips of sasuke so i made sure to put that in. why is editing so fucking hard. i have so much respect for the people that do it and do it well because it really is the hardest thing ever, i feel like an invalid trying to use CAPCUT (i had an anyerusem using AE)

as with all my review posts, *spoiler warning*

well well well folks. i am officially finished with my first year of college and my exams. since moving from my small town high school to an ivy league - i can now say that i am a mediocre student - at best. i went from someone who had all A’s during high school to having half of my transcript be B’s and B-. And even so, I still had the best time. I can’t wait to leave my hell hole of a house to go back in June, because I miss the city so much already. (I think it’s something having to do with the sun being out now, because I wanted to go home soooo bad when it got cold - i am not a cold person). 

In my scrumptious 16 hour car ride back home, i took up one of my previous pastimes - reading. because I was in the car, I only had the selection of books which i had previously downloaded on my iPad - one of them being Looking for Alaska by John Green. 

I have mixed feelings about this book. I reallyyy want to like it. I do. I really do. But for some reason I just can’t. I don’t like how the book is built around the one central point and it happens halfway thru the book.

We never got to see Pudge and Alaska in their moment. There was so much buildup and then suddenly it was gone. And Pudge got super annoying and thank GOD the characters were able to recognize this and tell it to him. However because the story is told from Pudge’s point of view, we have to put up with him.

Pudge is unlikeable. He’s lowkey narcissistic and a pick-me. He thinks that no one wanted to be friends with him in high school because he just wasn’t cool or because he was too skinny. This really bothered me.

Alaska is unlikeable. She’s manipulative, especially toward Pudge. She would get jealous when Pudge would be with Lara, but she wouldn’t want to be with Pudge. And she knew that she could control Pudge.

The only likeable characters were Colonel and the Eagle. I actually really liked the Eagle. And Takumi and Lara but they were so minor that they didn’t even add much to the story.

The story was too short. I feel like John could have expanded the story so much. It ended so abruptly. It felt like we were just finally getting to understand the characters and how they act with one another and then *boom* climax of the story and then its over. that was it. too short and too abrupt of an ending. 

the climax didn’t make an sense. the story felt like John knew he wanted Alaska to die, but then wrote the story before he had figured out how. It felt like John didn’t even know how she died either. And i didn’t like this. I don’t like being in the same state of ‘not knowing’ as the author. I like being kept in the dark, if it means that the reveal is coming later on. It never came. I was still left confused. “Yeah but that’s the point, you’re supposed to come to your own conclusion like Pudge and Colonel” Shut up. Just shut up. You sound like you’re trying to justify bad writing. Shut up. 

There should have been more buildup to the car crash. And the book would have been better if it was told from both perspectives of both Pudge and Alaska. Because it would be better for the audience to know exactly what was going through Alaska’s head.

The part where she just storms out and has to drive to see her mother at 3 am was so abrupt and stupid too. It made no sense. She would have been too drunk to even remember, which is what they made a point of at first. Also she never would have been able to drive straight. Her committing suicide made NO SENSE. and john made a point of that through the characters’ investigations and THEY EVEN SAID IT MADE NO SENSE FOR HER. this is why there should have been a perspective from alaska. it was just lazy writing in my opinion to have not had that.

i hate this book. i hate this book. it had so much potential and then it felt like john got in a rush at the end and rushed the ending. the buildup was so good and then he just ruined it.

rating: 4/10

i am literally kicking and screaming while writing this💗💓💗💓💗💓💗💓💗

so basically i was at a frat mixer event last night and i see this cute blonde boy there. and i think i saw him on instagram before because he looked kind of familiar, so i KNEW that i had to talk to him

side note: i have a weird affinity for blonde boys. I KNOW IT SOUNDS TOXIC!!! because i HATE HATE HATE when a guy fetishizes blonde girls and i know i’m doing the same but GOD I LOVE THEIR CUTE LITTLE BLONDE LOCS IT’S SO ADORABLE!!! i developed this affinity wayyyy before miraculous so this is totally unrelated.

ANYWAYS! i somehow end up crossing paths with him and i’m like THIS IS MY CHANCE! and so we’re talking and i find out THAT HE IS ON THE FENCING TEAM!?????????? LIKE WHATTTTTTTTTT ARE THE ODDS

okay but sadly he is not french he is russian😅 but the fact that a blonde boy did fencing was enough to convince me that this is irl adrien agreste. idk maybe he’s a secret fashion model too

AND HIS REAL NAME STARTS W AN ‘A’????????????? AHAHSHSGHSKJLNJKNASIJW

anyways so the story: i was talking to him and u know i was possibly intoxicated which is NOT cute at all. he was so adorable and dreamy. and he was older bc he took a gap year. wow this is so much information. anyways i don’t even remember if i told him my name. 

then i was studying in starbucks today and I SAW HIM. the part where i cried tho - he was with another girl. smh. i didn’t go up to him bc i didn’t want to be weird if he didn’t remember me.

maybe next time

anyways i lowkey have a huge crush on him now sooo. and he probably doesn’t even remember me. bruh i hate having a crush like this it’s the worstttttttttt.