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a wonderfully patient and creative nonnie asked for a list of prompts based on interactions between two good friends in the aftermath of a trauma that happens to one of them, and iām nothing if not a sucker for angst and deeply emotional connections! so here we go! iām hoping these will be up to the nonnieās expectations! have a wonderful day, my lovelies, and DO NOT ADD TO THIS LIST !!
ā i really hate seeing you like thisā¦Ā ā
ā why donāt we hang out tonight? like we used to, you know? order in cheap take-out, watch crappy movies, go for a walk⦠whatever you want, right?Ā ā
ā please say something⦠anything. even if itās telling me to shut up and leave you alone⦠just say something.Ā ā
ā i really miss you, you know.Ā ā
ā iām here. you got that? i donāt care if you never say anything to me ever again. i donāt care. iām not going away, and iām not going to stop being here for you, no matter how long you glare at me or ignore me or pretend that youāre okay. because i know youāre not. i know. ā
ā talk to me. i donāt care what we talk about. it doesnāt have to be anything big. we donāt need to talk about whatever happened to you, not unless you want to. i just⦠just talk to me, will you?Ā ā
ā you know, i talk to a lot of people every single day. i hear all their voices telling me all kinds of stuff; i hear it all. and the only voice i really wanna listen to is yours, you know? even when youāre driving me crazy. so come on. please⦠just drive me crazy again?Ā ā
ā ā¦seriously? no come-back? no witty retort? no⦠sarcastic shot at me? come on, i⦠i know we never ask these things, but, honestly, iām worried about you. whatās going on?Ā ā
ā penny for your thoughts? hell. a dollar? ten? fifty? my whole life-savings? damn, at this rate iād give away everything i own just to hear your voice again.Ā ā
ā this is like, the ninth voicemail iāve left, and i know you hate voicemails, so iām thinking this might be the one that pisses you off enough to pick up the phone and talk to me. because despite the number of times iāve told you to shut up, iām actually begging you to say something, now. weird how things work out, isnāt it? anyway. pick up your freaking phone, moron. please.Ā ā
ā will you please talk to me? please?Ā ā
ā i have exhausted every single topic that i can think of to get you to open your mouth and say something to me. all of them. you leave me no choice⦠how are you?Ā ā
ā listen, weāre all really worried about you. okay? and we wanna help you, but we donāt know how. so how about you write us a note, or something? maybe just, open the door, huh? i just wanna know that youāre okay.Ā ā
ā youāre not alone, you know. youāve got people who love you. who care about you. youāve got me. and iām not going anywhere.Ā ā
ā look, i donāt know what happened to you. and i donāt need you to tell me, okay? i donāt⦠i just want you to know that iām here. i got you. no matter what. and if you need some space, then⦠then i can leave. just tell me what you need, okay?Ā ā
ā i donāt need you to say anything. you donāt even need to open the door. iām just gonna slide this paper under the door, okay? you tell me what you want for dinner, and iāll bring it up.Ā ā
ā iām sending you on a list of therapists and group support meetings in the area, okay? you donāt have to go, but⦠promise me youāll take a look at the list, right?Ā ā
ā listen, i know you gave me a copy of your key for emergencies, and this feels like an emergency, but⦠if the silent treatment is part of you trying to get some space, then i donāt wanna intrude. you know? so just text me if thatās what this is, and iāll leave you alone.Ā ā
ā i know, i know. you asked me to leave you alone. but that was two weeks ago, okay? and i havenāt heard from you. you arenāt answering my texts, you arenāt even reading them. nobodyās seen or heard from you, and⦠and now i just want to know that youāre okay. so please, open your door, and let me make sure that youāre safe, will you?Ā ā