Logical Mystic

So I am currently watching this video below. 

It is four hours long. So you need to set aside time for this. I am not new to his work. But what I have realised throughout the year now is that, no information is really new at all. We just discover it and re-discover it again later, with more depth. Digging deeper than the last time we experienced it and with this we garner new understanding on the material. I have been studying this matter for almost two decades now and I am still learning, and even re-visiting older materials. 

We have changed. We as people. We are the one who changed. We lived our lives, and exposed to different experiences. When we were younger the information might just be words. But now we might have enough memories to recall and feelings to relive by when we read the information. These experiences are the reason why you need to revisit materials that you have read or encountered before. Because your new wisdom will create new knowledge and new wisdom for your future. 

It is like when you were younger and you said you wanted a phone that you can manipulate by touching its screen. Fifteen years ago, people might say ‘yeah right’ but now, hardly any phone that doesn’t have any touch screen as part of its system. Even at the low end of the market where you buy a pay as you go phone at 70 dollars, it would be a touch screen. 

The point is, the world changed, you’ve changed and now we can re-attempt a few things that we couldn’t do before in the past. Maybe with less efforts, since we have a better understanding. I remember someone said that when you were younger, you probably go hard at something because you have more energy, but when you are older you are better at something, because you are more refined. So you don’t waste your energy unnecessarily. 

It has been a while since I am here. I don’t know if there are still people here that follow my post. I hope you guys are well, if there are. 

So what I have been up to lately? In the area of self development/ spiritual world, I have picked up a new technique that I use to manage my anxiety from youtube. It is called the Havening technqiue. Below is the video that got me into it. 

It is very quick and simple, yet very efficient and powerful for me. I like to have skin on skin contact, but I don’t think it is necessary. As you see in the video, he rubs his arms with clothes on. 

It works so much faster than EFT (a technique that I employed for the majority of 2016). They both work. But for me this Havening technique works almost immediately, while EFT, you have to stay with the process a bit longer. 

Recently, I am obsessed with the contents of Dr Joe Dispenza’s work. Here is one that I play quite often these days. 

His philosophy is based from the Ramtha School of Enlightenment but what I find to be more interesting is the scientific evidences (brain imaging) that he uses to illustrates what happens when we change our minds. We get to see a glimpse of what happens physically inside our brain when we choose to let go of old ideas and commit to a new one. In a way, I find the explanations fits my language programming. It is basically explaining what or how the law of attraction works, but from the perspective of the changes in our physical brains.

I haven’t really bought any of his meditation cds, nor have I gone to any of his workshop. In his word, his job is to demystify meditation and the process of creation. I find that to be effective (for now anyway).

There are little nuggets that help me connect with all the materials I have learned so far. For example, like I have been introduced to Alpha & Theta music, binaural beats for more than a decade now, and I also had a little bit interaction with the Theta Healing method a while back. However in Joe’s teaching, one thing that he mentioned that helped me put this theta healing from a concept (i.e. of I don’t know why this works, but I am going to try it anyway) to a practical thing. Theta as Joe explains is when the mind is awake but the body is asleep. This is the state to which you can change the programming of your mind, as you are changing it so that the body follows suit as well. Of course what I like about the teaching is because it is done through meditation (I assume), the changes are not promoted with just one time process, it is a daily practice. And I think, that is very do-able and realistic. 

Its a daily practice. Miracles happen, but not because one person does one thing at one time to you. But because you choose what you want and how you want to live everyday you are awake. 

So far, I find his teaching to be very practical and realistic. It is changes over time, by creating a meditation practice, based on scientific processes. Something that combines all logical mystic spidey senses. 

I am going to go on a hiatus for this blog. Thank you for all the followers. 

If you have been feeling emotional lately, it is normal. This eclipse season is really coming on at full force. The last of the tetrad is in two weeks, but it doesn’t mean today’s new moon eclipse is to be underestimated either. 

I won’t lie if you want to read about astrological energy I go to MysticMama to verify my own feelings about it and I found them be spot on.

This week starting from last Sunday, I have been feeling that heart wrenching emotions again. One that actually produce tears, albeit they only lasted minutes not days like last year. Also my third eye chakra has been activated and I also experienced astral projection as an informed adult that I can actually remember this week. 

Talking about these things make it seems like I am making all kind of progress at this ‘spiritual’ front. But to be honest, it doesn’t really feel like an accomplishment, because it is not me who are accomplishing these things. I am merely experiencing them. Being allowed to experience them through my body, more like a passenger experience rather than the driver. 

Also maybe because these experiences for me, personally, I still can’t integrate how it could be useful in my human life. As much as it is fun to experience these ‘supernatural’ experiences (though when you experience it, it actually feels very natural), my ego kept poking me by asking ‘yeah but are they changing your life? are they feeding you? are they bringing you money? what good are these experiences if they don’t change your life?’

This in a way was the theme this week. All these petty voices to rise up to the surface. For a few days now, the first thing I hear when I opened my eyes was ‘I hate myself. Why don’t you die already’ It has been a while since I thought this way. Now it sounds like another person almost that is accusing all these things to me. 

Reflecting the energy of this week with these ‘un’supportive voices, ego, shadow, whatever you want to call them, are actually natural. 

This eclipse is intended to stir all these dark energies to the surface, to agitate them. When things are agitated of course they naturally would react quite aggressively. If your survival are at stakes, wouldn’t you fight? That’s what these dark voices are doing, they are fighting because they know their power are getting weaker and weaker and with the last eclipse coming up in two weeks, these dark energies are going to get a blast of light energy to make them go away for a while. Because as always, new level means new devils. But that is a problem for another day. 

This is logical. When things are logical, it allows for the heart to do what it needs to do best, to love. Logic allows an organization of energy so that there is space for what is real to shine, and at the end of the day it is always love. If we can’t see the message of love then we are not at the conclusion of an experience.  These eclipses are helping us to settle and go over our ‘past’ or any darkness left inside before going to the next stage of our life. If you are unable to do so, then you would have the option to leave the body. Which makes eclipse season a very good season for people to die, because these are basically portal days that connect the heaven earth. This is why you would hear more about death surrounding the day of an eclipse than you would most days. 

So I broke my fast on day 6. I had a pear. It was a very weird sensation. As I was cutting the pear to bits and pieces (because you need to start refeeding slowly and gently), the skin on my hand sent a signal to my brain that felt like tingling. It was as if, through the nerves at the tip of my hand, my brain recognised that food is present. As if it was acknowledging its presence, and more than that, thanking it. It was more like an energy contact rather than a mere physical contact. 

I also experienced of what I can only summarised as alchemy. This time there was no tingling or extraordinary sensations of sort but simple imagery and knowing. 

The vision was of fractured or multiple parts of me rejoining itself and making a whole entity. Like a broken mirror that reversed the broken process and restored to its whole self but different. Because I felt those separate parts of me, I have made myself, like when we have different personality when we are at work, with family, with strangers, with our lovers, with different friends (this one probably could results in multiple personalities if you have many group of friends, let’s face it, you know its true), and when we are by ourselves. This is as close as I can explain about different part of me, they are not necessarily broken, but just not jointed. 

Somehow today, I saw that they all melt together, creating this one whole self. Almost a different self. The best analogy I have right now is maybe one of cooking, you use many different ingredients to create this dish, that consist of all the elements but it is a magical existence on its own. Or like transformer. You know when they have their own different vehicles and then when they meet this giant enemy all the vehicles joint together and create this giant robot altogether, that works as one whole robot and not five separate vehicles.  

Back to the serious stuff. I felt that somehow, that these multiple selves,‘we’ stopped and the new ‘I’ started today. I haven’t really explored the future of this ‘I’, it is all new to me. But there is no anxiety about it, or rush or curious of any sort, which is different on its own.

For me the mind blowing realisation was finally understanding and experiencing what healing or making things whole in the first place. Healing is merely a restoration of separateness into its whole self.  And also the art of alchemy, in this case alchemy of the soul, literally. To transmute different elements in to a new being. 

It makes wonder, if this is what you get after only six days of fasting, what would you get after forty days? It does make me more eager to experience what Jesus and Plato and Socrates and Pythagoras experienced in their forty days of fasting. I can see and understand that this practice brings you experience and not merely extract you from your food addiction, or losing weight, or manipulating the mind to stay centred and present (which all happen to be true). But these subtle experiences that you would not owned (because nothing is owned until you experienced it) if you were not doing this practice. 

Full moon today in Pisces. How are you all feeling? 

I am a Pisces and it has been intense but not emotionally, rather in a cerebral way. The energy shakes my brain and it brings up memories. As if I was dying and my mind is rewinding, but rather happening in a flash, it is taking its time since I am still breathing. (The triggers of rapid memory flashing is due to the rapid oxygen loss in the brain when you are dying- Oh so I read in some Sciency paper somewhere). 

The effect is also enhanced because I am in a period of fasting (the starvation pain is insane). Which lowers my metabolism, and circulation and most importantly it slows my breath down. Hence it is logical with all these things happening and with this full moon effect the consequences are one of watching one’s childhood to adulthood like a vivid live in movie. 

The benefit is of course this time, I get to see it from a different perspective. From the older age perspective of this personality and events that once have been traumatizing have become memories. Plain memories without evoking further emotional response. Like that feeling that you have when you are so familiar with a place that it loses its magical effect on you but this time it works the other way around, it loses its bondage on you. No complaints here. 

You might experience a different effect from this Full Moon, and the memories might torment you emotionally. But one thing that you ought to do in this period is to feel them all, feel all of it. The angst, the visceral rebellion that is happening inside, the heart thumping as if it wants to leave your body. Feel them. 

Because the purpose of this Full Moon (I don’t know about the others) is to cleanse your slate for the next energetical space. To almost literally create a new blank canvas so you can create new memories on it, and to do that it needs to de-frag, sweep clean all the things from the past so you will have enough space/memory to handle the new things that are coming. 

Curretly playing Birdy + Rhodes- Let It All Go

Denial is a strong space to be in. The worst one is when your denial is based upon wishing something to go well. 

I remember the last time I vividly in denial was over Sydney’s Siege saga at the end of last year. I followed  the broadcast live as it was going on. Glued to my TV, which was saying something because even now, I still don’t watch TV and it has been over three years since I did properly. But around that time, for some reason, I had the urge to do so and found out about the event unfolding. 

As the day progressed, I kept saying to myself, convincing myself, that I am sure it will be fine, that everyone was going to go out safely, at least no one would die. Casualties were to be expected, but not fatal ones. I was genuine in my speculation. But of course, the fact didn’t end up happening as such. Two people dead, or three. 

Denial. Hope. Faith. Are they the same? 

I am feeling like that with my life at the moment. I feel like, it will be okay and things will look up. But what if I were wrong? What if my life is the same as the above event? Something I hoped to turn out well but, facts may have other ideas?

At times like these, when you had an experience that contrary to Abe teaching, i.e. trust in your feelings, that your foundations get shaken up a bit. Especially when you remember their sayings that words don’t teach, life experiences do. 

Now which way do you go?

The key is of course like in the example and life, is to let time answer the question. Death is easy, dying is hard. Dying and living are the process, death is the destination. Dying and living, are the choices you make of what life is about. Because they both are right. We are living and we are dying at the same time. It is like the case of looking the glass half empty or half full. 

At the end of the day, it is about the process. Do you choose to have faith in the process and may end up wrong once and a while like having hope that all to turned out well but having two to three people dead, or do you choose to fear with all your might and be validated in your fear when two or three people are dead? I choose the former, to live in faith. Simply because it is lighter. 

I just listened to another Abraham’s workshop (here) and there near the end they talked about the fact that the door swings both way in terms of flow of non physicals to our physical realm. The dialogue mentioned an experience that the asker had about how he felt like he had joined the non physical and ‘croaked’ for a bit (an experience not literally), mentioning further that it felt good. Then Abe said to remember that it also could done the other way, that you can let it just flow to you, allow it through you, bring it down to the physical. Which is easier and less resistance. 

This is not the first time I heard this type of explanation (re: allowing the non physical to the physical, which is why we all choose to do this human experience, to allow the spirit to become flesh). But this time it lingers longer than usual, that mechanics of energy. 

I suppose it hits me strongly now because, I have been thinking the same way as the questioner, i.e. joining the non physical (energetic wise) rather than allowing it to join me. When I said me, I meant the physical part of me. Because we all can agree by using the Abe’s terminology that the complete us, must include the non physical part of us, and the small part of us that is flesh are just that, a small part of the bigger and complete ever changing us. You should get what I mean (I hope). 

Do we do this too often? That is doing this the hard way? We are all at one point of another try to do this ‘Ascension’ thing right? And in someway, I am trying to do that, ‘going up’ to meet with ‘source’. Forgetting the fact that the whole process of life is to bring the spirit to Earth. To make it flesh. Hence, what I am doing and what most of us are doing with this whole ascension thing is pretty redundant, because the whole point is ‘to descend’. Because ascending is up stream, and you want to have things to go down stream. I know, now the metaphors used have quite the literal meaning that I myself at this point are starting to get really confused and yet clear at the same time ( paradoxical experience is a sign that you are standing at the border of a new understanding about a subject).

This reminder from Abe is important because of the trajectory of the point of view. The direction to which you take your journey. It is like, before this reminder I had been looking to my right all the time, thinking it is the only way to accomplish my desire, but after the reminder, Abe is saying, you know looking to your left might be less arduous and actually get you there quicker, result is still the same.  

It sort of have that snapping quality to it. That makes you go oh yes, that’s right, I still have my left side as another path to take. 

Maybe this is why we all have such a struggle with this quote on quote spiritual journey, because we all think the ascension path is the path for enlightenment, the way to be spiritual. But the irony is, the most spiritual path is to be as human as possible to be physical as much as possible, because in this way you are allowing the spirit to do what it had intended to do, to have a human experience. Once we acknowledge that our human experience, with all that its entails, are actually all a spiritual experience, we stop to separating the idea that our spiritual practice is something that we do for a period of time, but rather as something that, for as long as we are breathing, we are having a spiritual experience. The human experience is the spiritual experience. 

Yesterday if you believe in numerology was a very auspicious day, 888. The last 8 resulted from adding this year’s numbers 2015 up. 

Maybe you felt it too, there was a sense of completion that came with yesterday. The feeling of something was completed. A circle was closed. Another one is beginning.  Well, things always end and start at any given time, but you know what I mean, like that feeling of finishing a book type feeling or an arduous journey. 

Being an adult is a weird business. I spent Friday’s night going to the city just to walk its main street for forty five minutes before going home. It was purely to absorb the feeling of Friday’s night. I realised why I was doing that yesterday. I wanted to soak up the feeling of youth. You spent so much time out and about in the city or town when you are young and somehow time slipped by and you wake up one day, realising the town you grew up in is owned by the next generation of youth. One that you have to accept and let go of. As i walked through the busy street, I had glimpses of the type of people I used to hang out with. Their surrogates anyway. 

Without realising on the last day before the circle was closing, I had done a goodbye walk, a symbolical gesture of sort. Closing a chapter of youth that I have so long delayed. I might be  a few years too late, I am 31 after all. People usually close their youth by 29, before they turned 30 or just before they are married. But one thing I learned is that you should go with your own pace and no one else. 

Also, those intense feelings that you are feeling right now? Appreciate them. Because feelings are rare. You won’t think so now because you are constantly in them, seemingly wanting to escape its prison but they just don’t come easily as you grow up. Those feelings are real. Cherish them, even if they are for memories collection later on in your life. 

Closing a circle, and I do call them circle rather than a cycle, because that’s what it feels like, a ring closing, a circle completed,  a head eating its own tail, visually speaking. 

But whether it is good or not, it doesn’t really matter. Because this new circle that we are all starting will one day closes also, and over and over it goes. That’s what life is. In the bigger scheme, it will only close permanently when we are dead, but even then our souls will keep on going and our bodies will decomposed being reused by the Earth. Death is merely a separation of what human really is, a hybrid between the corporeal, spirits and mind. Where each entities will return to its own circle to feed the new circles goers. 

The question now is, if all the things in the world will keep on turning, and turning and it will never stop and you know that you can’t really keep up with it and also build your own thing, what would you choose? What do you want to do? 

Because, I know that in youth we tend to follow and taste the varieties of things up on offer. But when you start this thing, you started to realise that new things will keep on being created and tasting new things will never end. 

The end of my youth in the past meant that my life would become boring and colourless, but now I realised, it is actually about, stop being a follower and avoiding the spotlight. It is about realising that there will always be new things I would feel inferior about, opportunities I am unable to take, etc etc and not to focus on these anymore. But rather, to focus on what it is that I want to do. What I want to create and do just that. Forging ahead, despite the crowded noises inside your head that resist with all their might, having to listen to the voice of your adult voice, that you can do it, you can survive, no, not only survive but thrive as a new adult self. 

I am currently obsessed with Oh My Ghostess (KDrama, I have accepted the fact that I am staying in this K-Land for a long time so let’s move on) and in the latest episode (ep 10) the idea of responsibility was brought up once again by the male lead towards the female lead character. It seems in the KDrama land, the burden of taking responsibility for another person lies on the female. 

Is this a new thing or has it always been like this everywhere in the world? Ever since I was a kid, the idea was always ‘a man takes the responsibility for a woman’ . Let’s face it, that idea has been thrown around as if it was fact even when you didn’t want to hear it. But it never really sits well with me. For some reason, I never really accepted that fact. 

Watching these KDramas lately though, make more sense. Women taking responsibility for men, actually sounds more factual. It fits my experience growing up. How the female are the ones who take care of everyone, including the husband, the in laws, the extended family. It seems her responsibilities are endless, while his was only to go out there and get a job or make money. Just this one thing. I am not saying it is not important, but I am saying it is only one thing. While she has to do the other ninety nine things. 

Yet, when it is done, the way it is done in KDrama Land, there is something sweet about asking to be taken up as a responsibility for one’s life. These scenes for me are always sweet and filled with vulnerability that you couldn’t duplicate when a woman is asking for a man’s responsibility. Because when a woman does it in a film or movie, it is usually done in a demanding way, in a coercive way. But every time I watch a scene when a man is asking for a woman to take responsibility for him, it is always touching, sweet, fragile, sincere, innocent even. It is as if he is submitting not only his heart, but his life on to this other person’s hand, voluntarily. 

My friend asked me this at the beginning of the week and I was left silenced, not being able to answer easily yes. Which means that, it is a no. Anything that is not a straight hell yes, is a no. As Abraham Hicks usually puts it. 

The good thing is that question made me contemplate the fact that despite having a ‘no’ as an answer for now, I don’t regret my life either. 

One of the tests that I use to keep my self on check is if I were to die tomorrow, will I have regrets about how I live my life now? 

This question keeps me grounded, as even if I were not happy as I had mentioned before, I am not miserable either. I am going somewhere. There is a destination that I had in my head. The destination itself is almost inconsequential, it is just an excuse to have the type of journey that I want. An excuse to take on a lifestyle path I desire. The emotional journey towards the ambition is what I am after. 

For some of us, like me, we might not know why we existed in the first place. But for me, why I am living right now is what I try to focus on. The grand scheme of our lives seems to be hidden until the very last moment of life, for good reason. We want to live our lives as freshly as possible, if we already feel the theme, then life has become redundant. 

I am a drama/movie/film addict (and to other things as well). I think it is the best analogy we have for life. 

I like watching TV shows, and as you know before Netflix, we all have to wait every week for a new episode to come out. An hour a week, or for KDrama two hours in two days every week. 

There is this cycle of waiting and then the day arrives, and before you know it, it is over after an hour, then you are left with a whole week of anticipation once more. Life is very much like that one week of waiting for that one hour show. 

I don’t know if my advice would be to utilise the whole week with a more productive activity or not. Because in someway, the anticipation is delicious as well. It is the period where we are left to our imaginations. In this example, to what the characters would do, where we would prefer the story lines to go, and then the writer would choose it for us as we find out in the show allotted time slot.

We might have different reactions, some would be sad, some would be happy, some would be upset to what happen in an episode, but we would still be all, watching the same exact episode written by the same people. Like life, the show is an event, that would probably is the same in truth of how it unfolded, but could be perceived very differently. 

Much like watching dramas and TV Shows, the reason I want things to happen is to have lots of feels when I was watching/going through it. 

Maybe so many of us are here in Tumblr, or in our own little imagination world, is because like me, you feel more when you are watching a movie, reading a book, listening to a song, writing a story, and you can’t get that in real life. 

Should we try to disconnect from this hive of feels? Because I tried that and tried to live the life that people called normal, and all I felt was anxiety half of the time. Balance, is more of a myth than depression or so called success, in my book. 

I don’t really have a point these days, maybe that’s shows how scattered my brain or how I have burnt all my real life up in smoke so it can go back to an abstract form. 

Anne Frank’s diary been on my mind lately. I went to Anne Frank’s house in Amsterdam three years ago, and saw the limited space she and her family had to live in for at least two years. It was small and cooped up. But it was the diary that made the biggest impression for me. 

I supposed it is the fact that her father read the diary after her passing and mentioned the fact, that even it was his own daughter he felt that he didn’t really know her. The diary contains her thoughts and her inner world. But what was seen from the outside from his perspective was a different persona. 

I imagine this is how it is with everyone. We see people everyday and we have this idea of who they are from what they choose to reveal about themselves. But we never really know what they think and how they think. We have our own filter in to which we perceive the world, and also expectations. These coupled up together mean that we have this made up conclusion about how people are before they even have a chance to reveal who they really are as they are. 

People who are in our immediate surroundings, despite their blood relationship to your, or close physical proximity are not necessarily the people who are your mind mate. 

This is the point of live, to mix around people that aren’t like us. It feels almost like a joke. We are here on Earth to be put as part of a combination of other or different mind so we can create a complete bigger picture. Like no puzzle can be put together if they are in the same shapes. 

Is it better to live in fantasy but have an average reality or to have what other consider as a great reality but not have any actual feeling of happiness, like you do when you live in your own little world? 

Do we have to constantly choose? These thoughts been circulating in my head.

When I was in my late teens and early twenties, I used to have a social life. I did what was scripted by society for that age. Go out, hang out with friends, clubbing, meet people, and tried to date. The keyword is tried. Despite what I consider a healthy social life, I never really was entirely happy. It felt like chasing one’s tail in a vast empty space, the tail would be happiness. 

Then I found this thing call Blogging. It was early 2000s, blogger was the only site that provide blogging space then.  I found myself escaping and avoiding any social engagements of any sort just to sit in front of my computers and type things out. Make things up. Fictions. Writing. Fan Fiction (what else is there? lol) especially for Shinhwa (KPop Boyband) who I newly discovered upon their newly released fifth perfect man album. I was hooked. 

The high, the feelings that I could not have in real life, were filling up when I was left alone in my own fantasy world. World of my own creation. I realised that it was the same feelings I had when I was still in primary school, buried in many Manga (mainly Shoujo - not much difference to my KDrama addict now). Even at a single digit age, interacting with these fictional characters and stories took precedent than interacting with the immediate people in my surrounding. 

Simply for one reason, these characters made me feel, love. 

That warm feeling that you have in your heart, the fluttering feeling in your belly, the hyperventilation that you experience when something big is about to happen in the story line, one that you expected but still needed to prepare for emotionally. 

Now the chasm between reality and fantasy seems to grow bigger and it is not as easy to go back and forth. To make the choice between living in reality but as a living empty shell, much like a zombie or to be full and alive but isolated from the world. 

The only thing that can change depression and all deviance in the brain function of ours is the constant reminder and remembering that we are loved and we are never not. 

This fact is something that we need to accept as true rather than constantly doubt. We are to focus too much on the physical that we forget that non physical existence that we have come from. We forgot that from the moment of conception there was no in between. First there was no heart beat and then there was. There is that invisible gap that we are unable to see or measure. We just know that it wasn’t there and then it was. Just like magic. We are unable yet to determine what makes our cells to come alive, to breathe the breaths that we do now. 

We forget that if it isn’t for this leap in faith to existence, none of us are here. The fact love is constantly given, is prove of our lives. 

The moment the brain recognise the vibration of love, it can corrects itself. It can maintain its own homeostatic bodily system. It can rearrange whatever needs to be arranged in the body to match the vibration blue print it has received. 

We are run by invisible things all day and all night. Not even talking about the woo woo waa waa of this new age thing, just think about it. Radio wave, wind, TV Wave, Wi Fi, Noise pollution from constant airplanes flying above us, microwave radiations, etc etc. 

Our hearts create the highest electromagnetic current in our body and yet we tend to dismiss it as irrational and at times ridicule it as dumb. It is true, it is dumb, for it has no means of language of the right brain, mute but not stupid. It is the first sign of intelligence of the body to exist. 

It appears first and it will go first. Without it no life is created. The heart beat is the love. We get depressed because we live in our brain rather than living in our hearts. We were never meant to live with our heads as its leader. It is never comes first. This is our error. It is a great right hand wo/man. But not the leader. The heart is the leader. The heart is mute, and therefore we have the brain as a somewhat decent translator on a good day. Which is why we mistake it as the leader, it is merely a mouthpiece.