letty❤︎︎

the high hit like a freight train. because as youd find out the following morning, the weed brownie in its entirety was around thirty milligrams, meant to be split into four. but, because it was jj, he didnt exactly ask, nor care for, the specifics. which is why you were where you were right now.

you were lying in the middle of your bed, sprawled out like a starfish while jj lay between your legs, his head smushed between your thighs while you both stared at the ceiling fan spinning above you. "y'ever wonder how stars work, baby?" he asked, eyes half-lidded as they lazily traced a small crack on the wooden ceiling.

a small giggle escaped your mouth before you could stop yourself, "what? that doesnt make sense, jay." he sat up faster than you could register, eyes locking onto yours as he moved to prop his hands up beside your head, "no, like, it totally make sense if your think about it," he said with a little too much confidence.

your eyes narrowed, slightly red at the edges, "okay...how?" he puffed his cheeks up before flopping down onto the the bed beside you, heaving out a break like he'd run a marathon. "like, do y'think they turn off during the day? or do they get sad cause the suns brighter?"

the laugh that left your lips filled the room, warming jjs chest in a way he didnt think was possible with the high that had begun settling deep in his chest. he groaned, failing to his the way his lips twitched up into a smile. "baby, im serious!" you clutched your stomach, a small tear slipping out from the corner of your eye.

"thats why its funny!"

he huffed, crossing his arms over his chest, your laughter quieting to a stop. you turned to look to him, taking in the way his bottom lip jutted out slightly. you rolled over then, draping your leg over his hip and pushing yourself up to fully straddle him.

his pout faded as fast as it was there, his hands unraveling to take purchase on your thighs, the very same ones pressing against his hips. jj got hard embarrassingly quick, his length pressing against your ass. you giggled, shifting to get comfortable, unintentionally riling him up even more.

he chased your touch when you lifted yourself off his hips. he whined, reaching up to grab your waist and tug you back down. "stay here, y'look cute." he smiled up at you, watching as you shifted to lie down on his chest. "you're not sneaky," you mumbled against his chest, feeling his hand slide down your back and rest on the small of your back.

jj smirked against your neck, hand sliding further so he could grab a handful of your ass, grinding you against his erection. you gasped softly, pushing yourself up against his chest and smiling down at him. he looked up at you with reddened eyes, the corner of his mouth twitching with a hint of a smile.

you smiled, leaning down to capture his lips with yours. jj deepened the kiss immediately, hand flying to the back of your neck and holding it steady as you both continued kissing each other like you were being deprived of oxygen. with barely any effort, he flipped both of you over, slotting himself between your thighs, and ducking his head to kiss down the side of your neck.

you giggled, tilting your head to the side, giving him more access to your neck while your hands moved down to the hem of his shirt, lifting it up, nails grazing his chest as you continued pulling it up, eventually pulling it over his head and tossing it to the floor. you pulled jj back up to your lips smiling into yet another kiss.

a rustle from the living room, followed by john b and sarahs laughs, made you freeze. jj didnt hear it, of course, he just moved to the kiss the tops of your boobs, tugging your shirt till it pooled at your chest, and pressing his face into your chest.

he stopped when you shooed him away, about to protest before you slapped a hand over his mouth, giving him wide eyes as if telling him to shut up and listen. when jj finally did hear them, he barely stopped to think before he burst out laughing, completely miscalculating how much space he had and instead rolling off the bed with a dull thud.

"jj, what the—" you barely got the words out before pausing for a moment, then joining him in laughter. from outside of your room, john b paused, cocking an eyebrow. "are they... okay?" he asked sarah, who had already been dozing off against his shoulder after an extensive harry potter marathon (theyd barely gotten through the second movie before calling it quits).

sarah shrugged lazily, cuddling closer into john bs side, "did you forgot who youre talking about? of course theyre not okay." john b snorted before shrugging, wrapping an arm around sarah, tugging her closer in an attempt to drown out jj and yours not quieting giggles.

back in your room, jj had finally climbed back in bed, still giggling as he tugged your shift back into place and got comfortable with you as his human pillow. it barely took five minutes before the two of you passed out, the warmth of the high still lingering in both your systems.

your eyes squinted open only hours later, darting over to the clock on your nightstand that read 2:47 am in bright red light. your high had settled for the most part, still slightly there, but now you actually left like you were in your body instead of feeling like you were floating outside of it.

the only thing that was missing? your 6 foot, 185 pound human teddy bear. you looked around the dimly lit room, finding the mop of your boyfriends blonde head on the floor. curious, you leaned over to see what he was doing.

and of course, because you had a boyfriend like jj, who had just survived the 'biggest high of his life', that meant he went on your laptop to watch legally blonde, a can of soda next to it, with a bowl of whatever stale chips he had found in the kitchen now tightly held against his chest like the cookie monster was going to steal them.

you bit back a laugh, instead deciding to roll of the bed with a huge weighted blanket already surrounding you like a cape. he looked up at you and smiled while you lied down next to him, makign sure he had some of the blanket as well, stealing a couple of chips from the bowl before he could stop you.

he wrapped his arm around your shoulders, bringing you closer into his side and pressing a kiss to the side of your head. "best high ever." you sniffled back a laugh but didnt say anything, instead just scooted closer to him and rested your head against his shoulder.

he was right though, best high ever.

you didnt move, didnt hear him. he sighed heavily, throwing his head back like it was the most tragic thing in the world. jj stood at the edge of the bed, puffing out his cheeks before falling face first onto the bed, landing right on top of you and wrapping his arms around your waist.

you groaned, shifting enough to pull a squished arm out, pulling your earbuds out. "jj, youre huge—" he smirked against your shoulder, "oh, i know. but thank you." you rolled your eyes, "—and youre crushing me." jjs dropped onto your shoulder like a kicked puppy.

still, he pressed a kiss to your shoulder-blade and shifted off of you, landing next to you with a small oof. you shut your phone off, turning to face him with a smile. "how'd it go?" jj turned to face you as well, shrugging, "it went fine. did y'know you look fucking gorgeous right now? like... beautiful."

you smiled, pink creeping up your neck as you turned to hide your face in your pillow. your ears were pink by the time you finally spoke, ignoring the way he laughed at how flushed you got in such a short ammount of time. "youre just sayin' that," you muffled into the pillow before jj turned you around, holding the back of your neck and pulling you in for a kiss.

"im really not," he said, lips brushing against yours. "i love you, baby," he told you, still inches away from your face. he pressed another kiss to your lips before turning you fully, now having you lie on your back. he shook his head, "i love everyting about you y'know?" he shifted, straddling your hips, hands propped up on either side of your head.

he pressed a kiss to your cheek, "i love your eyes," he mumbled against your skin, moving lower. "your heart," he smiled, pressing a kiss to the hollow of your throat. "even that cute nose scrunch thing you do when you get embarrassed," he said, shifting lower to press a kiss to your stomach, just above your belly button.

you laughed, a real laugh that bubbled out of your throat and made him smile against your skin. "fuck, i love you, baby," he mumbled, smiling when you threaded your fingers through his hair. you tugged on his hair lightly, pulling him up slowly so you could press a kiss to his forehead, then the tip of his nose, and finally, his lips.

he melted into the kiss, arms wrapping around your waist and pulling you impossibly closer. he pulled away, breathless, pecking your lips one more time before shifting back down and pressing his face into your chest, right between your boobs. "are you serious?" you asked, raising an eyebrow with a tiny smile playing on your lips.

jj pressed a kiss to your sternum, lifting his head just enough to look at you through his eyebrows, "i dont regret a thing," he mumbled, throwing you a wink before settling back against your boobs. his hands drifted down, settling on your hips and squirming their way under your ass. "babe," you tugged his hair, pulling his head up.

he pouted, "what?" and you laughed, "stop it." he huffed, moving his hands back to your hips and pulling his face away from your chest. "fine, fine," he sat up, pressing a kiss to your lips and wrapping an arm around the back of your neck, tucking you against his side. "i love you, yknow that?"

you smiled, "you already said that baby." he shrugged, tilting his head down to look at you clearly. you were already looking at him, your free hand playing with his shark tooth necklace absentmindedly, but your eyes were on him. "yeah, i know, but i mean it. y'know i dont think i ever told you but the first thing i noticed about you was your eyes."

"really?" you asked, eyes flicking over his features before settling on his eyes again. he shrugged once more, suddenly more sheepish than before. "yeah," he let out a small breath before continuing, "i feel like if it was any other girl, i wouldnt have noticed their eyes first, but i did on you. so, i dont know if that means somethin'. dont get me wrong i love your tits, defenitely your ass—" he laughed when you pushed his chest.

he turned quiet for a moment before speaking, something in his tone sounding more genuine this time, "but, yeah. i like holding your waist at parties, smacking your ass when youre mad at me, and kissing your neck and whatnot, but your eyes were what caught my attention." by the time he turned to look at you again, your eyes were already shining with unshed tears.

his thumb reached out to wipe the one stray tear that had fallen, "youre turnin' me sappy, sweet girl," he mumbled, leaning down to press a kiss to your forehead. a wet laugh bubbled out of your throat, sound reveberating in the small space. "thank you fro that, baby. i love you," you said with a smile. he smiled right back at you.

"i love you more."

he moved before his brain registered it, wrapping an arm around your waist before you could fully sit up, pulling you into him and pressing a warm kiss to the side of your neck and mumbling, "i got it, baby. you just sleep, a'ight?" you nodded, already slipping back under the covers.

jj smiled, pressing a gentler kiss to your forehead and removing the covers off his own body, making sure you were at least comfortable before he slipped out of the room, stumbling down the hall and into the nursery. he moved to the louder one of the two first, riley—or, who he thought was riley.

"alright kid, i gotcha," he mumbled, blinking away the remnants of sleep his body was holding onto as his hands slid gently under rileys body, lifting the kid with ease. his body bounced up and down insinctively as he moved over to the other twin. his eyebrows furrowed when he took in the face of the twin still in their crib.

his eyes darted around the room like there would be an invisible guide to what twin was which. "wait..." he mumbled, leaning back slightly to catch the face of the twin in his arms, eyes moving down to the twin in the crib before moving back up.

"who the hell are you?"

he winced when the cries of the baby in his arms got louder, "no—no, cmon dude...ette? i d'know, but im tryin', alright?" he body bounced up and down again slowly, making sure the baby was secure before leaning down to pick up the other twin and nestling them against his chest. he smiled, just barely, but it was there.

the twins tucked their heads under jjs chin, a tiny, chubby hand curled into a fist against his collarbone. "why does your momma keep on makin' yall wear matching clothes, hm?" jj paced around the room, swaying side to side as the twins began to settle.

he furrowed his eyebrows, eyes mloving between both twins. "yall got somethin' against me?" he huffed out a small laugh when they cuddled closer into his chest, almost like they were saying yes without actually saying it. "i know yall can talk, ive seen boss baby. just tell me whos who," he grumbled, walking over to the rocking chair you had insisted on building yourself while nesting.

he sat down with a heavy sigh, pushing the chair with the balls of his feet just enough to simulate the swaying rhythm he had done standing up. he paused for a moment, squinting his eyes and glancing back down at the twins. "okay, seriously, this isnt funny," he said, glancing at who he thought was wyatt. "dude c'mon, i wont tell anyone if you say like... two words," he said, only half serious.

he sighed, feeling tears pool at his waterline. "i dont like this," he mumbled, voice cracking halfway through, even though the twins had already started to settle. he pushed himself up off the chair slowly, moving over to the changing station settled in between both cribs, placing down one kid at a time.

he fiddled with their clothes, muttering nonsense to himself. "i swear your mom—maybe she didn—nah i swear... what the hell?" he swore to himself time and time again that you had marked rileys big toe with a bit of rose pink nail polish. but all of a sudden, it had disappeared from both twins feet.

he didnt even register the tear that had fallen down his face until he saw a small dark spot on the white cloth of one of the twins footed onesies. god, what kind of father was he if he couldnt tell the different between his twins.

the twins were still at that age where they looked exactly alike, despite being the opposite gender. but they were his kids. his. so, despite his head telling him to suck it up and just ask you how you differentiated the twins, he so desperately wanted to figure it out himself. he sniffled, wiping his cheeks to rid them of stray tears.

his eyes zeroed in on the twins, but no matter how hard he tried to spot at least one difference, he couldnt. hed spent almost every waking moment with them, letting you sleep in and catch whatever hours of sleep you could, hed fed them when you were too tired to even sit up straight, he rocked them back to sleep at the ass crack of dawn, telling you to go back to sleep instead of dealing with them.

hed done everything he could and he still couldnt tell them apart. he glanced at the analog clock hanging by the sliding closet doors. it was almost four o'clock. jj let out a small sigh of defeat, head hanging but eyes open just to stare at his kids. the loves of his life.

"i cant even tell my own fuckin' children apart, what the hell," he mumbled, one hand moving to brush back one of the twins heads of hair. he didnt even hear you come in until he felt your arms wrap around his waist, hands fiddling with the drawstrings of his sweatpants.

you pressed a kiss right between his shoulder blades, moving to rest your cheek on his shoulder, adjusting well enought that you could sitll see the twins. "you okay, baby?" jj sniffled again, just barely leaning back against you and nodding. he never took his eyes off the twins, though.

you furrowed your eyebrows, turning your body so you could see more of his face. "baby whats wrong?" he shook his head, "nothin,' i just—i cant tell which is which," he choked on his words, a soft sob ripping out of his throat. you stared for a moment.

it was stupid really. if it was any other situation, you wouldve laughed it off, reminded him that they werent even old enough to laugh and that he had a couple months before he was obligated to remember.

but he seemed so, broken. it shouldve been something so simple, but the way his face crumpled? he looked like hed just realized hed failed as a dad. "baby..." you started, rubbing a hand up and down his arm. he shook his head, shruggign you off like it didnt matter. "its fine. its stupid, i know," he mumbled, lifting one of the twins up and settling them back in their crib.

"thats riley," you told him with a soft smile. "she has little beauty marks on her right palm." jjs brows furrowed slightly as he put her down, reaching over to flip her tiny hand over, revealing the constellation of beauty marks on her palm. he finally smiled, running a gentle finger along her arm before moving to who he now knew was wyatt.

he just stared at his boy for what felt like an eternity before finally lifting him into his arms, ducking down to press a tiny kiss to his head and moving over to his crib. he set him down gently, brushing his knuckle along his chubby cheek before backing away, walking straight towards you and wrapping you in his arms. "god, i love you," he mumbled, pressing a kiss to your temple.

you gave him a look, one that asked you okay? without needing words. he nodded, "just got scared. i mean, im their dad and i didnt know who the hell was who." you smiled, reaching up to brush a stray tear off his cheek.

"jj, its okay, i didnt know who was who until like, the third week."

with your head tucked into his chest, you mumbled, "we can make little signs for them to hang above their crib if you want." he pulled away again, looking you in the eyes, "we dont have to," he told you, turning his head just enough to glance at both twins sleeping content in their cribs. "cmon itll be cute," you insisted.

"plus, it works great for storytime when theyre older." he rolled his eyes playfully, huffing out a small, defenitely fake laugh and shoving you back gently before moving toward you and lifting you off your feet. "youre mean when youre trying to be funny," he mumbled as he carried you back down the hallway and into your bedroom.

you pressed a gentle kiss to his cheek, "its why you love me, baby," laughing when he tossed you onto your bed, then tossing himself onto it with a heavy sigh. "i guess so," he mumbled with a fake frown, immediately grinning when he saw the look on your face. "im just playing, baby. i love you." you beamed, cuddling up close to him under the covers.

"i love you, too."

unfortunately, he overestimated himself. he came into the curve too fast, front wheel wobbling slightly from under him, and before he could adjust—he hit the guardrail. the sound of metal against metal hit his ears before he could register it and the bike flipped onto its side, sending him skidding against the concrete.

his body—face, arms, legs—scraped along the road before halting to a stop. he was on his back, chest heaving with heavy breaths as he stared up at the cloudy sky. his jaw, among multiple other spots of his body ached, he felt the blood running down certain areas, the muscles aching, injuries screaming for help, but he was moving, feeling things. that had to have been good.

he groaned as he pushed himself to sit up straight, everything screaming in protest. he reached over to where his phone, now more cracked than before, lay from where it fell out of his pocket. he thought of calling you, but something deep inside—maybe regret, shame, fear of pity, made him call john b instead.

it took john b less than five minutes to get to the location jj described. and the frist thing that fell out of his mouth was, "dont tell her." john b didnt ask, he knew what that meantwhat he didnt acknowledge apparently, was that telling sarah equates to telling you in some way.

"open the fucking door, jj," you called out. not yelling, but the frustration in your tone couldve been mistaken for it. he sighed, wincing as he pushed off the bed and walked over to unlock and open the door. you pushed the door open fully, now seeing the full extent of his scrapes and bruises.

his shirt was torn slightly at the hem, streaked with the blood and dirt he didnt manage to clean off in time. some of his knuckles were raw, probably from where he scraped them against the concrete on his way down. "jesus christ, jj," you breathed. "i told you that bike wasnt ready to ride."

you stood in front of him now, arms crossed over your chest, blinking far too much to be normal. like you were blinking away tears. "i know, alright? i know," he spoke, voice barely above a whisper, like he was ashamed. you wiped your face with both hands, trying to calm yourself down before you said something irrational. "then why didnt you listen to me, jj?"

he shrugged, staring down at his hands, flexing his fingers, then balling his hands up into fists. "can you just look at me already?" your voice was louder now, but it cracked halfway through, desperation threading itself between the cracks of your calm facade.

he sat on the edge of the bed and looked up, only now giving you the chance to see the scrape running down his jawline, dry blood running down his neck. your face shifted, tears pooling at your waterline yet again. you didnt bother blinking the tears away as you kneeled down, turning head to the side so the moonlight would hit his jaw, giving you a better view at the scrape.

your eyebrows furrowed in worry, "jj... what the hell?" he jerked his head back, your hand falling to your side with the action. you pushed yourself back up to your feet, blinking up at the ceiling to will your tears away. "why, jj! this isnt a fucking joke to me, what if—"

he cut you off before you could continue. "i know, alright?! believe me i fucking know." he sounded somewhere between exhausted and mad, more at himself than anything. "i shouldve listened to you, i-i know. youre right, okay? is that what you wanted to hear?" you threw your armw out by your side.

"i dont care about being right, jj..."

"then what do you care about," he whispered, barely audible.

"i care about you. i care about not being so reckless so you can realize you dont have to do stupid shit to get someones attention, especially mine." his breath caught in his throat, a sound you wouldnt have caught if it was under any other circumstance. you sighed, holding a hand out for him to take, "cmon."

he took your hand after a moment of hesitation, letting you lead him across the hallway and into the bathroom. he put down the toilet lid and sat down without being asked, hand falling down to his lap when you pulled yours away. you didnt say a word as you knelt and pulled the first aid kit you kept under the sink for emergencies, mainly because the guys had made it a chore to get injured at least once a week.

you placed the kit in his lap, kneeling in front of him as you took out the antiseptic wipes and gauze. you were careful with he way you managed his wounds because you loved him. not for his looks, hair, or any other physical trait. but becaue if the roles were reversed, he would treat you the same.

you didnt care for his flaws, but rather the way he didnt let them affect him. which was probably why you were so frustrated with him right now. because he didnt let his flaws affect them, he sometimes forgot he wasnt indestructible, and it worried you off to say the least.

"i really am sorry, baby." he whispered, tucking a strand of hair behind your ear, but you didnt reply. so he tried again, and again, and again.

"i fucked up, i know that."

"talk to me baby, please."

"i love you, im sorry again."

still, you cotinued to tend to his wounds, not giving him any other words, just the occasional hard pat of the wipe against the edges of his scrapes. you wiped as much of the dried blood that surrounded them as possible before reaching into the first aid kit for the tweezers, pulling out whatever pieces of debris has been lodged into the open wounds.

you tossed the tweezers into the sink after you were done, placing gauze on semi-clean wounds one by one, starting by the side of his leg, then to his arm, and up to his jaw. then you reached into the first aid kit again to grab the medical tape, wrapping it to secure the gauze to his injuries. you grabbed his chin gently, tilting it to the side.

you sighed, pushing yourself back up onto your feet. your hand stayed on his chin, he tilted his head up to look up at you. his eyes were lidded and full of something you couldnt quite recognize but could only assume was regret. with a small smile, you leaned down at pressed a gentle kiss to his lips, so gentle it was barely there.

because despite his stupidity, or that stupid look he gave you when he deeply, truly felt bad, you could never stay mad at him. not that youd want to anyway.

he sat there, on the toilet lid, a small smile on his lips as he watched you walk out of the bathroom, shutting the door behind yourself. for some reason, a part of him still couldnt believe you stayed. through everything.

little did he know, youd never thought of leaving. you never would leave, even if he told you to. you loved him too much to ever think of leaving.

jj was drunk by the time you got there with kiara, whod been the only person you told, simply because she found the box while rummaging in your bathroom counter for a spare deodorant. his shirt was slung over his shoulder, drink full of warm, stale beer in hand, the beer in the cup sloshing around as he moved around the room.

he spotted you from the corner of his eyes and immediately turned, crossing the room over to you and pressing a kiss to your lips. just the smell of the beer lingering on his lips made you want to throw up. but you wanted to hang on to that last shred of teenage recklessness you had in you, so you stayed.

despite everything in you telling you to leave because of the pure uneasiness lingering deep in your belly, you stayed. because jj looked so happy. free. you wanted to see what it was like to live like there was nothing on the line, even though nothing could change the permanence of the baby growing in your belly.

a hand moved to your stomach instinctively as you watched jj walk over to a folding table with red solo cups on it. jj grabbed a cup from it, walking back over to you with a smile that wouldve lit up an entire room. your stomach twisted, but you accepted your drink regardless, just holding it, staring down at the contents in the cup like jj had just handed you a cup of poison.

the scent wafted up to your nose and you almost gagged, turning to place the cup on the kitchen island. everything had hit you like a freight train since you found out. the morning sickness, nausea, fatigue, sensitivity to smell, mood swings, all of it.

youd been doing well with managing most of it so far, but with a cup of stale beer and standing in a room full of drunk, sweaty teenagers who had no sense of 'personal bubbles,' everything flared instantly.

jj furrowed his eyebrows, "baby, you okay?" he asked, moving closer and wrapping an arm around your waist. you puffed your cheeks with air, blowing it our slowly with a nod. "yeah, 'm just... feeling sick, i guess," you mumbled, fully acknowledging the fact that you didnt sound believable but choosing to ignore it.

"you sure?" his hand drifting lower, now resting in the small of your back, thumb pressing soothing lines down your hip. "im fine, j," you snapped. "just tired. go have fun," you turned to him with a tight lipped smile, tilting your head to gesture to the drunk crowd of sweaty teenagers gathered in the living room, most swaying offbeat to whatever song was playing.

he narrowed his eyes at you but didnt question it, leaning in to press a kiss to your cheek before moving to join john b, who now had his shirt on inside out and had somehow managed to climb onto the mantle, cracking a foaming beer open and spraying it onto the crowd, earning a chorus of cheers.

you swallowed your saliva nervously, lifting your shoulder to wipe his wet lip print off your cheek. you glanced around the kitchen, eventually walking over to the cooler with drinks bathing in half melted ice, pulling out a water bottle, twisting it open, and taking as sip as you moved back to where youd been previously.

thats how youd spent most of your time at the party, people watching in between sip of your water, condesation dripping down your wrist if you didnt wipe it off on yur shorts in time, and somehow talking some girl named vanessa out of getting back together with her ex.

it felt as though an hour or two had passed before an even drunker jj approached you, shirt now wrapped around his head like a bandana and that stupid drunk, but in-love smile plastered on his face. "hi, sweet girl," he mumbled,slighty slurring his words as he wrapped an arm around your waist, leaning in to press a kiss to your lips.

he blinked when you turned your head away, kiss landing on your cheek instead. he actually blinked. "hey... whats wrong with ya?" he asked. he didnt mean it with any malicious intent, but there was something deep hidden in his tone that you hadn't expected. you shook your head.

"nothing, jj. i already told you im fine," you murmured back, barely managing to keep eye contact with the guilt swimming deep in your irises. "look at me when youre talking to me." his voice was clipped now, frustration threading itself between his eyebrows. you rubbed a hand down your face, breathing out heavily and turning to face him. "im just tired, jj. that enough for you?"

your voice was laced with a mix of both frustration and the dread that wrapped around your entire body like an invisible rope that kept on tightening no matter how much you tried willing it away. "wheres this attitude comin' from? im just askin' whats wrong," he said with furrowed eyebrows, hands now placed on the fake marble of the kitchen island, arms caging you in.

"im not giving you an attitude, im just answering your question." he cocked an eyebrow, giving you a quick updown. your crossed arms were the thing that gave it away the most. "really? 'cause that mug you got goin' on is saying something else." you huffed, rolling your eyes and droppign your arms to your sides dramatically.

jj narrowed his eyes, the drinks in his system making his actions more noticeable. "okay, the fucks wrong with you," he asked, pushing off the island and placing his hands low at his waist.

"like are you... being dramatic on purpose or some shit?"

you let out a dry laugh, pushing off the counter and heading towards the front door without another word. you heard him call after you, muttering half assed apologies to partygoers he bumped into as he ran after you.

he caught your wrist when you were halfway acorss the front lawn, fully intending to walk home because you just couldnt deal with the bullshit—his bullshit. "the fucks your problem? im trying to ask you whats wrong because that 'nothing, im fine' shit doesnt work for me." he didnt raise his voice, but his tone was firm, he wasnt asking for an answer, he needed one.

you snatched your wrist out of his grip, "because it is nothing! i just dont— i dont know, alright?" he stared blankly. blinked once. then scoffed, "yeah, alright," like he didnt fully believe you. he didnt, was barely trying to. "just be happy and enjoy the fuckin' party then," he mumbled, running a hand throguh his hair, glancing back at the house.

rolling your eyes, you shoved him back once, "im goin' home." he stumbled, just barely catching himself on a truck parked in the driveway. he stared at you, you looked so tense, almost scared, but he just scowled. "youre fuckin' overreacting over nothing, then? just tell me what the fucks' going on!" you two stared at each other, and after a couple moments, when it seemed he was going to turn and leave, you blurted it out.

"im pregnant."

he sobered instantly.

his eyes widened, head jerking forward like he didnt hear you correctly. he rubbed his eyes with his thump and pointer finger, blinking a couple times before a, "excuse me?" slipped out of his mouth. tears pooled in your waterline and you blinked them away before speaking more clearly, "im pregnant." jj nodded slowly, still trying to understand the situation while not looking completely incompetent.

he raised a finger into the air before putting it down, "um... how exactly?" jj asked before quickly adding with a tiny, barely there smirk, "well i know how, but like... when did you uhm," you furrowed your eyebrows, watching how he snapped his fingers, fishing for the right word. "find out?"

his head snapped up towards you, snapping his fingers towards you and nodding, "yeah, yeah. when did ya find out?" you shrugged, wrappign your arms around yourself trying to ease the chills on your skin from the sudden breeze. "around a week ago? i just— i guess i didnt want you thinking i was trapping your or whatever... its stupid really-"

"hey, hey," he mumbled, shaking his head as he stepped towards you, placing his hands on your shoulders in the most comforting manner he could pull off at the moment. "dont do that. its my fault, alright? i fucked up, i overreacted. im sorry. im so fuckin' sorry baby, seriously." he wrapped his arms around you tight, kissing the top of your head repeatedly. "you didnt deserve that at all, im sorry."

you nuzzled your head into his neck, breathing him in and arms wrapping tight around his torso like he might disappear if you let go. "i didnt want to ruin things with you and i thought this did it," your words were muffled against his neck but he heard them loud and clear. pulling away, his hands moved to your cheeks, pressing a kiss to the tip of your nose.

"you could never ruin things with me, baby. never. im pretty surprised i havent," you laughed at that, it was slightly watery, but it was real. and thats all jj cared about in the moment. he slowly descended onto his knees, right there on the pavement in some strandgers driveway.

he pressed one hand pressed against your still-normal belly, the other resting at the back of your thigh. "as for this little munchkin," he mumbled, leaning in to press a gentle kiss just below your belly button. "when do you like know what they are?" you huffed out a tiny laugh, pressing a hand over his on your belly.

"in like three to four months, jj," you smiled down at him because even in his stupididty, you loved him with everything you had in you. he just shrugged, pressing one last kiss to your belly before pushing off the pavement and standing back up, wrapping an arm around your shoulder.

the two of you began the short walk back to the chateau. "well whatever it is, im gonna love them with everything ive got." he sighed, throwing his head back to watch the starry sky, content. "hey, youre gonna be a milf. ha." your smile dropped, turning your head to catch him already looking at you with wiggling eyebrows.

you shoved him off with a roll of your eyes, a laugh escaping your lips despite yourself. he laughed, a full belly laugh as he caught up to you, wrapping his arm around your shoulders again, pressing a kiss to your hairine.