forest of desire

‘I took my grief down to the river to drown it there but it was the grief that carried me and it won’t be bringing me home.’

— Dunya Mikhail, from ‘Buzz’, The War Works Hard, trans. Elizabeth Winslow (New Directions, 2005)

i guess. journal entry

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i would say… first start by acknowledging the fact that you have a huge capacity for meanness and cruelty bc everyone does. and it’s not helpful to imagine yourself as a beacon of kindness bc it undermines the fact that you inevitably will hurt people because that’s how life goes. i think a lot of people value kindness but they don’t put in the work to be nicer or more careful or more attentive and they only focus on the idea because they like the idea and they value kindness as a trait but they don’t make any changes in themself. but kindness starts by acknowledging that you haven’t always been kind and you’ll be unkind again but the point is to put more attention and care into your everyday interactions and work on being more vulnerable and delicate with people. being kind isn’t a constant state or a trait even but a conscious act and a choice you make in every interaction and relationship and so you just have to pay attention to people and be gentle with them but also honest and sincere. because kindness always starts with being genuine. but i’m not an expert but i’d like to be kinder always

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As I Was Moving Ahead Occasionally I Saw Brief Glimpses of Beauty, dir. Jonas Mekas, 2000.

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