carey mulligan

37 - who do you want more - Zoe or Jessica?

great friends. is that what we call it now? hope my love just absolutely suffocates you.

text message ⇒ carey 🌻

well... did you at least enjoy the trip overall? i tried to stay out of your hair as much as possible. save for the few occasions we didn't.

oh, you know, any moment spent away from you is like heaven on earth. spent some time with my favorite people and an unlimited amount of wine. couldn't complain too much. how did you fare without me in your presence? well-behaved, i assume? since you only act like an ass around me.

Permit me to doubt that, not the part about you being a good actress, but everything else? I don't know. Maybe it's just that I don't have the face for being evil, and no matter how much I try to unleash my acting chops, I still apparently radiate golden retriever energy instead of terrifying villain. Though now you've put the idea in my head and I fear I do need to play a proper bad guy at some point just to prove I can. I love that you specifically said princess, but at the same time it's the one that makes most sense, isn't it? Give us one dramatic ballroom scene and a near-death confession in the rain that have people are crying in theaters. It was really nice seeing you in Napa, even if it ended up being way less time than I'd imagined! My eye isn't on anyone right now, thank you very much. I'm emotionally unemployed at the moment. I was only asking in case you secretly had elite matchmaking abilities and wanted to test them out on me. Although now I'm deeply entertained by the idea of you seriously trying to figure out what my type even is. Especially when even I don't know.

doubting?! do i need to reintroduce myself again? my dearest friend doesn't know my best traits? you do kind of come off as the perfect man. i'm sure when people first glance at you they think: 'he's probably such a gentleman' or 'i want to introduce them to my daughter or friend' depending on the age range. never would they think, 'he''ll ruin my life' which is generally a good thing! for as long as i've known you, i don't can't even think of anything sinister you've ever done. do you have one deep dark secret you can share or what? a princess is just me living out my romantasy. we can have dragons and all. but as long as the near-death confession in the rain happens, i think we're in good hands with whoever wants to pick it up. the napa trip was way too short and not enough tea spilled, both literally and figuratively. i haven't drank that much wine on a weekend in ages. saying you're emotionally unemployed when i know plenty of people looking to be hired is insane. real question though, entertain me for a bit... are you even looking to be in a relationship? or letting love find you, naturally. listen, i'll try my darndest to figure it out. so far, i only have attractive and hilarious... which barely cuts it down to 2 billion people. i know you may think you don't have a type, but try to give me a hint at what else you like in an overall general sense!

oscar loved his work, and always had, but lately it felt like it was grinding him down into something thinner and a rupture was imminent. from new york to los angeles to back again, there was always somewhere he needed to be rushed off to next, and on top of it all: having to pretend to be in love with someone that couldn't stand him (and vice versa) while arguing over the phone with someone he actually cared about, plus fending off the guilt of going too far with jessica again... and now this. the words slipped before he could help it at the premiere and he was already beating himself up enough for it. he knew it would be spread online in seconds, that it would mean a slap on the wrist from his team that waited for them just behind the curtains he had to walk through while holding carey's hand and smiling like everything was fine.

divorce. stuck. contract. stuck. pr relationship. stuck. it almost seemed like there was no sense of control in carey's life besides where her heart lies. if she was to focus on it for more than two seconds, a glimpse of her best friend would pass by. luckily (or not), since her divorce, she was already used to closing off a part of her emotions. never revealing her true self until she knew it was safe to. but when you put her in a room with someone who made her blood boil with anger, combined with the frustration of trying to keep it together, it was a different type of vulnerability, and one could say, it was also a different type of 'safe' that came out as shit-talking.

Oh did I? Should i go get a heart to put it back? Well paint me honored I could. Well they still might be fun but if I can fill a void, lift up a friend be there it's very important. You question your craft? really? I find that fascinating how we all have imposter syndrome on some level. I bet the kids do yell it from the roof tops and very rightly. See I can't get her on set of three but I can give her eventual film three goodies. yeah consider her spoiled with a bunch of rare goodies from it. I cant even speak on them yet but they are already being made

oh, no.. no, it'll grow back eventually. just need to see someone very special soon. you really might be one of the sweetest people i know, so i think it's super important to have friends like you. it's really quite crazy, isn't it? imposter syndrome absolutely kicks my ass some days, and others, i feel like nobody can even compare. oh gosh, i'm super excited. may even call her and say that i was just with vanessa from fnaf, to get some cool points outta her! though, enough about me. can you tell me how much fun you had in napa? i think i barely got to see you!

My curiosity is even more piqued now, if that was even possible. Listen, I'm always going to lean towards something a bit dramatic that ends in a bottle smashing over absolutely anything. The idea of a revival of that show sounds insane to me, but what's even more insane is that no one's jumped on it before… that was quite the show and with all these revivals, reboots, etc..., this one deserved to shine too, new generations finding out about it and all. I've got a feeling I wouldn't have to let you win, but if you want to keep adding a few extra years onto yourself, by all means, keep telling yourself that, love! And please, I would simply cease to function if I had to breathe the same air as Karl Urban. He hasn't aged a day, he wouldn't need that much CGI. We should just pack up and go film the whole thing in New Zealand and make it everyone's problem.

oh freya, for you, i think we deserve to make it all happen. even in our fantasy world of reprising xena: the warrior princess, we can certainly fit in some bottle smashing there. you've given quite the spiel. i think it's time we take it to the lengths of greta gerwig and bring robert tapert back on board. we can be old or new characters, but i'm sure we'll be loved all the same. i'm telling you... it'd be a disservice if they don't let two badass women battle it out with swords. oh, stop it, you! flattering me will just make me want to fight you less. honestly, let's pack up, head to new zealand, and do our own fan-created version. i think people will kill to see it. which one of us has karl on speed-dial, though? should we go on a look-a-like audition process or do we not have time for that?!

i feel like a lost puppy without you. a lost, sad little puppy who really, really misses you and would love to meet up and isn't too ashamed to beg. were you looking for a buddy for anything on the itinerary? or maybe we can do our own thing? @llcarey

my sweet daisy, oh how i've just been dying to see you to catch up. i'm looking for literally anyway to get away from oscar, so i'm ready to follow you like a lost puppy in your adventures. are we gonna relax with yoga and soundbaths? or are we getting wine drunk and gossiping? my wish is on the latter, of course.