llamaboosh

I saw my ex in laws yesterday and it might be the last time I ever see them. It was very emotional and sad, but we will always be family. Since their son isn’t talking to them or anyone else for that matter, I had to be the one to explain why he decided to end our marriage. Having to explain I’m nonbinary (which even his old head parents can fully comprehend and understand because they know me) and how he stepped out on me due to my medical issues. The looks of disappointment on their faces broke my heart. I shouldn’t have been the one to tell them. I also shouldn’t be put in a position to come out if I don’t want to but that’s another liberty of mine he decided to take into his own hands. Despite it all I know I’m so much better off without that person in my life. I may be jobless and technically homeless now but I’d rather live my life authentically rather than have a big house and rich asshole “husband” like I did.

29 days no contact. you’re doing great, buddy 🫠🫠🫠

Believe I’m slowly coming out of a psychosis induced crush on a boy who is on the other side of the world both physically and emotionally that left me spiraling into a dark abyss of being sad and horny. I would love to blame winter depression but the fact is I’ve been down bad for this asshole well over a year and my addiction brain got one little taste and I couldn’t handle the withdrawal. It was a little too much fun while it lasted and now I’ve lost a friend due to unregulated emotions. At least I haven’t relapsed. I just hope he stays away so I can stay strong, cause that motherfucker made me weak af for a hot minute there.