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The World’s Cutest Adventurer

Listen up. There is literally an app that can help you avoid self harm and I don’t know why we aren’t talking about it.

“Healing isn’t pretty, but the other side is fucking beautiful.”

I’ve always only been able to love people for the bad, for the secrets in their palms, for the matching knives in our backs, for the bitterness they hold onto like a lifeline, but I loved you for the good. Until I got a taste of something darker. You can take the monsters away from the girl and take the girl away from the monsters but you can’t take the monster out of the girl. I would have loved the delicate way you tore me open, been awed by the beauty of it, if I didn’t so desperately want to keep your soft pieces soft. Not everyone should have razor blade skin. I thought you understood that. I hoped at the very least you would jolt me into caring about myself, but all I could think about was a more elegant way to come undone. It isn’t your fault I’m not whole, but within my brokenness there was love, and now I don’t know if I can stomach giving it to anyone else.

One day you won’t feel empty inside. One day you won’t think of her eyes. One day your pain will subside. One day your tears will have dried. One day you will swim with the tide. One day you will again feel alive, But every day I will be by your side.