I just want you out of my head.

I used to be able to handle this but lately I feel like I’m losing my mind. I used to make pretend that you were with me everywhere I went, now everywhere I go I feel alone. I keep telling myself that we were right for each other but the universe introduced us at the wrong time and from that point on everything has been jumbled and nothing ever makes sense. My heart keeps going back to you but now the universe has lost its map. I really can’t handle this anymore and the thought of you is starting to drive me insane. Some people say that a lost love should still be valued because at least you got to experience it... I wish I’d never had the opportunity to talk to you because then I would never know what it felt like to take every fucking breath knowing that you’re not mine. I’d rather never know that to live knowing that you’re there and there’s nothing I can do. The universe lots its’ map and I’ve gone insane. Lately every breath is meaningless and every thought is blank, I’m learning that I’m actually empty without you and I can’t handle it the way I thought I could.