Charlie:3

...Once you're middle-aged, it's all over. is a crazy line

i do worry about this a lot recently... im trying to think of the things i do in terms of How Long Ive Been Doing Them but a lot of the time i find myself thinking. shouldnt a 22 year old be capable of doing this better? think better? make something better??

i try to say i make things purposefully a little amateurish in order to get anything done at all.. and its true... but im recently upset that i cant make anything Really Amazing that im really happy with... i guess im in the gap a bit

i guess thats why drawing stopped being fun for me, im not intending to post for a while, i even deactivated my instagram lol... but writing is really the WORST one... im in a crazy rethinking loop, i dont know when itll stop! a good idea would be to talk with someone else about it because of course youre more critical of your own work than someone elses.... but thats scary!!!! its ok ill figure it out sooner or later because the alternative is to Stop Making Things and thats the worst one