Just Trying To Survive

I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.

I need a break so bad

“I’m so sick of myself, rather be, rather be anyone else”

“Sometimes, I feel the past and the future pressing so hard on either side that there's no room for the present at all.”

Have you ever had to get through a day, smiling at people, talking, as if everything were normal and okay, while all the the time you felt like you were carrying a leaden weight of unhappiness inside you?

I have the choice of being constantly active and happy or introspectively passive and sad. Or I can go mad by ricocheting in between.

Just something real would be nice

“I feel very small. I don’t understand. I have so much courage, fire, energy for so many things, yet I get hurt, so wounded by small things”

You can decorate absence however you want – but you're still gonna feel what's missing.