we read to know we are not alone

Most people refer to their happiness as “sunshine” that radiates sunlight, the one that pulls them out of their darkness. But you are not my “sunshine.” You are my moon. The moonlight that shines down on me on the darkest days. Even without the stars, a pool of ethereal light radiates you in stark contrast to the black sky. You are my moon shining dimly behind clouds, but just enough to see the light in the dark, to see there is hope when I think there is none. You are the moon shining brightly on a clear sky when I feel lost in the darkness. You are my comfort and serenity at night. You are the constant moon in my life. Regardless of where I am in the world, you will always be the same moon that grounds me, the same moon I adore, the one moon I have, will, and forever love.

Selenophile

Conrad Fisher x Reader

Summary: Jeremiah makes you come to a party, and a guy starts hitting on you and gets too close and Conrad comes to help you, and you even get your first kiss.

Warnings: Swearing, cigarettes and beer is mentioned, drunk guy is touchy.

Authors Note: This is my first request ever and I’m truly honored that I even got a request so I really hope that everyone likes it<3 -S

You’d just arrived at the beach for the big start of summer party. The music was blaring and it already gave you headache. You didn’t even want to come to the party. Tonight was supposed to be a night where you could do a face mask and finish your book you’d been reading. But that was ruined when Jeremiah wouldn’t stop pestering you to come to the party.

“Come on y/n, you just turned 16 are you really gonna stay in your room doing nothing?” Jeremiah says while pouting.

“I wouldn’t be doing nothing I’d be reading and doing self care jackass.” You say annoyed. Needless to say he wouldn’t leave you alone eventually leaving you with no choice but to come.

As soon as you got there Jere supposedly went to get you a drink but really he saw a few hot girls near the drinks table and wanted to flirt, leaving you stranded. You muttered to yourself about how you’d get Jere back in the morning. You looked around to find a secluded spot and instead of finding that spot your eyes locked with a certain blue eyed boy rough housing with your brother Steven. You smiled fondly looking at the said boy as he returned the smile. Steven had stopped obviously noticing that Conrad had been distracted by something.

“Bro Conrad, what are you looking at?” Steven said confused.

“Nothing.” Conrad said still looking at you with a subtle smile.

Steven knew he was distracted but didn’t bother looking at who Conrad had been distracted by, he figured it was just another pretty girl passing by. Not knowing that the pretty girl that Conrad had been looking at was you.

As soon as Steven looked away Conrad mouthed to you “hey” you laughed waving to him.

You walked away after finding a spot near the bonfire, grabbing a beer on your way to the spot. You’d never been a huge fan of drinking but on occasions you’d do it.

Since you rarely ever came to the parties you were pretty much left alone. All the people you knew were either occupied with something or someone for Jeremiah’s case. You wished you had brought your book had you known you’d be by yourself. But the one thing that helped was Conrad watching you. By now you’d caught him at least three times looking at you. Not saying that you weren’t guilty of looking at him either. These gazes had been going on for a while. Either at the dinner table while everyone was laughing at a Jeremiah’s joke, how Conrad would look over at you to see if you were laughing, or how the “accidental” touches made the both of you blush. You just wondered when either of you would actually act-

“Hey” An unfamiliar spoke up snapping you out of thoughts. Honestly you had no interest with socializing with a boy right now so you tried to ignore him but he seemed persistent.

“Hey! Excuse me?”

You looked up irritated. It was a boy you’d never seen before.

“Oh yeah sorry , I just didn’t hear you over the music.” you say clear irritation lacing your voice. But either that boy chose to ignore the obvious annoyance or is clueless because he took you responding as an invitation to sit down. He sat down close. Close enough to make you slightly uncomfortable causing you to move slightly. He still seemed clueless to your uncomfortableness.

“I saw you when you came to the party you look really hot babe.” Stranger dude says. You visibly cringed at that.

“Don’t call me babe.” You say anger hinting in your voice.

“Oh and attitude I like it I’m Clay.” He says holding out his hand so you could shake it. You hesitantly shake it saying “I’m …y/n.”

“That’s a pretty name for a pretty girl.” Clay says while kissing your hand. You tried pulling your hand out of his grip but it was too strong.

“You wanna get out of here babe?” He says as he pulls you closer almost on to his lap. You start to panic. Your hands start to shake and fear starts to paralyze you.

“No, get off of me!” You shout.

“Aw come on babe you’re gonna like“ He’s cut off mid sentence by a familiar boys voice. A voice you find comfort in.

Conrad had been looking for you to ask if you’d want to go home since he knew you were probably getting bored. But as he found you he noticed that Clay was next to you and alarms rang in his head. He could see that you were uncomfortable and Clay didn’t care enough to stop.

“She said no so get your fucking hands off of y/n.” Conrad’s voice rang out with anger and you could find yourself calming down. Conrad comes to grab you and guide you behind him. But as you’re standing up Clay pulls you back.

“Come on Connie we’re just having some fun.” Clay says. You could see Conrad trying not to lose his temper but it’s proves as useless once Clay says “You can have her once I’m done.” At that moment all hell is broken. Conrad punches Clay and he falls to the ground groaning in pain. He tries to get up but him being drunk doesn’t help so he ends up staying down. Conrad gently grabs your hand, and in that moment regardless of everything, you felt safe and everything felt right.

“I’m taking you home.” Conrad said. You didn’t complain, not wanting to stay in here any longer.

Both of you walked to his car silently not really knowing what to say. He opened the door for you and you said a thank you to which he didn’t respond. The drive back home was tense, with you bouncing your leg, and Conrad looking straight ahead his jaw clenched. As he pulled up in front of the house he shut the engine off. Both of you didn’t move sitting in silence for a bit.

“I’m sorry.” He breathed out he didn’t look towards you. You were confused though on why he was sorry. Before you could say anything he spoke again. “I’m sorry for losing my temper and punching him. No one has any right to put their hands on anyone. Especially you.” He was looking at you this time with such an intensity in his eyes. “What do you mean?” You weren’t clueless you knew what he meant but you needed to hear it from him. He let out a sigh shaking his head a bit. “I like you y/n I have ever since we were kids and tonight when that fucker put his hands on you I lost it.”

He looked at you nervous for what you would say but you didn’t say anything. Instead, you moved closer and put one of your hands on his warm cheek and leaned in. His lips tasted like spearmint gum, cigarettes, and of beer. He froze for a bit not quite registering the fact that the girl he’d been in love with since he was little was kissing him. But one of his moved to the back of your head and tilted his head to deepen the kiss as his other hand came up to hold your cheek.

You’d always dreamed of your first kiss and how it would be like. You’d always thought it would be a sweet gentle kiss. But this, this was a passionate kiss, like a million fireworks going off at once, while swarms of butterflies went through your stomach. All of the longing gazes and accidental touches made this kiss worth it. You smiled through the kiss, and both of you pulled away.

“I like you Conrad, always have and always will. And thank you for helping me.” You said while blushing and smiling like an idiot.

One is a Conrad imagine they’re at a party at the beach and someone gets on the reader. Conrad gets mad and tries to fight the guy. The reader stops him and they go back to his house. The other one is a Jeremiah it’s the same as the Conrad one but Jeremiah is the one getting hit on! The third one is for Steven Conklin. I would love for the reader to be Conrad and Jeremiah’s little sister secretly dating Steven and one day her brothers find out and get mad but then learn to accept it once they see how happy she is.

If you do smut I would love them to be smut but if not I would love the Conrad and Jeremiah one to have a fluffy make out session in it if you don’t mind. Steven’s too please!

Pairing: Conrad Fisher x Reader

Genre: Angst, fluff at the end

I woke up from all sweaty and drool was all over my pillow. Gross. I wasn’t gonna go to sleep anytime soon it was 2:24 am. I looked out my window and saw someone standing on the porch. My first thought was holy shit a strangers on our porch! but looking at the silhouette closely it was Conrads. Huh weird why would he be up late? I walked out of the room grabbing a hoodie that was by my door and walked out. The sky was beautful it was clear and the stars were shining so bright they were like diamonds in the sky. I stood by for a bit a few feet away from Con admiring him in the slight glow of the stars. He was beautful painfully beautful actually. I didn’t even notice how long I stood there for until he spoke up “Didn’t your mom ever teach you staring was rude?” he said in an amused voice. I swear the boy has eyes on the back of the head.

“Actually no, she didn’t. What are you doing up?”

“I couldn’t sleep. What about you? Don’t you have a bedtime?”

“Ha ha very funny Fisher. I woke up and I won’t be getting sleep anytime soon” I said walking over to stand by him.

We stood in silence a bit. It was a bit awkward to be completely honest he’s been M.I.A for practically the whole summer either drinking half the time or being around Belly. I missed hanging out with everyone as a group. Before this summer the five of us would at least talk or play board games but now it felt like everyone was off doing something else. I missed hanging out with conrad more specifically out of everyone I felt the closest with him. I wasn’t sure if the feelings were reciprocated but at least we had talked in the past now it felt like there was never a chance to. I was snapped out of my thoughts when “We don’t talk much anymore do we? You’ve been spending a lot of time with Jere instead.” Con said.

Ok so we’ve established Conrad most definitely has eyes on the back of his head but is he a freaking mind reader too?!

“What’s that supposed to mean? I’ve asked you to hang out with us before but you declined.” Conrad looked a little hurt when I pointed out that we’ve been distant but it was the truth I’d asked him multiple times to go down on a muffin run or to go swimming but he’d always declined instead opting to go get drunk or high.

“I’ve had things on my mind.” I could feel he was shutting himself down

“Things like what? You know that if you ever wanted to talk I would be here for you. Always and forever? just like when we were kids.”

He looked annoyed when I mentioned that. “Always and forever? That’s bullshit. I see you’ve been hanging out with Jere the second you got here. You guys have been doing everything together!”

“Conrad are you serious I’ve literally asked you multiple times to hang out you’ve been the one to decline not me you.” I could feel myself losing my temper. I came out here so maybe I could try to get Conrad to talk about what had been going on but now it just felt like a mistake.

“Whatever why don’t you go back inside to Jeremiah. He might be getting anxious being away from you so long” Conrad said in a mocking voice.

“What the hell is that supposed to mean“ you said confused.

“It means exactly what it sounds like you should get back to your lover.” Lover? What the actual fuck?

“Jeremiah’s my best friend. He’s not my ‘lover’”

“Sure doesn’t seem like it.” His voice steady but it felt like he was jealous. Wait no way Conrad Fisher couldn’t be jealous. Conrad Fisher only had eyes for Isabel Conklin. Right?

“I don’t get it you’re literally with Belly if you’re not drunk or high. Why are you complaining about who I spend my time with?”

He paused for moment. He seemed to want to choose his words carefully. “With Belly…it’s not the same as it is with you and you’ve been with Jeremiah that it feels like we’re not the same anymore. That you might like Jeremiah.”

“Jeez and I thought you were the smart one of us. I like you, I’ve liked you since I first saw you when you accidentally ran into me and your muffin stained my favorite shirt, I’ve liked you since you looked up at me and continuously apologized and offered me the last muffin you had to make up for it. I’ve liked you since we danced to our favorite song, when we swam in the ocean at 2am, or when we got lost when you tried to teach me how to drive. But I knew I was utterly in love with you when you made me feel safe when I was 15 and I had my first panic attack. You had talked about sailing and how we would go down early in the morning to go see a sunrise together and then get our muffins. And the sunrise that we saw was the best one because that was when I had thought to myself that you were the only one for me. So no it is different with Jeremiah and I because he’s my best friend. But you, Conrad you’re my sun and you’re the only one for me.”

Conrad looked at me stunned. For once I caught him off guard but for what price? I was right he had eyes only for Belly. I mean who wouldn’t she was gorgeous and incredible in general. I felt my eyes getting watery and I felt my cheeks get hot with embarrassment. I could feel myself choking up. I turned away. I wouldn’t let myself cry in front of him. I would get shit from the boys for a whole month. As I walked away a warm hand grabbed my wrist. I couldn’t even process what was happening. All I could tell you was that I had tears running down my face but my lips were touching a pair of soft lips. Conrads lips. Then just as quick the lips touched mine they were gone. Conrad Fisher had just kissed me.

“Wha-“ I was cut off by his voice.

“I love you.” He was out of breathe from kissing me but he was smiling. He wiped my tears away and laughed while doing so.

“Still a crybaby huh?”

“You’re such a jackass you know that.” I smiled so did he. And then we kissed once more. Before he pulled away.

“You know you look beautiful in my hoodie.” He had a light dust of blush as he said it. So did my cheeks though. I looked down and I saw I had been wearing his rowing hoodie he had given me a few summers ago when I was cold.

“I’ve been looking everywhere for that hoodie” He said laughing

“Well finders keepers losers weepers” I said.

“But you didn’t fi-“

Just as he was responding protesting against what I said since it was his favorite hoodie. I kissed him. And he let me.

Spencer Reid x BAU!reader

Genre- Angst and slight fluff i think

Part 2

Spencer threw his phone at his wall, cursing, because you wouldn’t pick up his phone calls or text messages. It had been a few house since he had gotten home and you weren’t with him.

You had left with Emily as soon as you guys got off the jet. To say that the ride here was uncomfortable was an understatement. JJ and Emily were also mad at Reid since you had told them what happened and everyone else on the jet knew something had happened since you and Reid were inseparable which meant you guys cuddled together on the way back home. Reid kept calling you but you had turned off your phone annoyed that he had the nerve to be calling you after what he had done.

You decided to stay with Emily for a few days or weeks depending on your mood but since you lived with Reid you had to go back and get your clothes. Meaning you had to see him. The ride to the apartment was awful you were dreading seeing the man who betrayed you. As you went up the stairs slowly trying to get a little more time before seeing him the only words that were repeating through your head were ‘Maeve wouldn’t have done that’ You knew you could never be good enough as Maeve. She was his first true love you could never compare to her and that thought alone made you want to crawl into a ball and cry. But you couldn’t so you decided to walk right up to you- his door you thought. You weren’t sure anymore if you even wanted to live with him at this point. You knocked twice. The door swung open as you took a deep breath to calm your nerves. “Reid” your voice was monotonous, trying to hide any emotions. “Y/N oh my gosh thank god I thoug-“I came here to get my things” You cut him off as you entered through the door hitting his shoulder on your way in. “What?” he whispered “Why?” “I need a break Reid. I need a break from you” you said as you entered his room which used to be yours and his. You started to pack your things but he took your wrist and you snatched it back like his touch burned you. He looked at you with a heartbreaking facial expression you would always take an opportunity to have him touch you. You always loved his touch“Look, I-I’m so so fucking sorry. What I said was out of line you’re amazing. Please, don’t leave me” You knew you couldn’t be here any longer your heart was breaking you didn’t want to leave him but what he said hurt. a lot. more so since he knew your thoughts on Maeve so you continued to pack. “I never said I was leaving you but I also can’t stay here Reid.” you replied shakily. You had finished packing your few things. You stood up to face him “What you said was fucked up so you don’t truly know how much it hurt. What if I compared you to one of my ex’s. huh? how would that feel? oh wait it wouldn’t compare because I never loved any of my ex’s like i loved you!” You were on the verge of tears. Yes you were sad but that wasn’t your most prominent emotion. It was anger. Anger that he compared you to his ex. Anger for knowing you would never be good enough. “W- loved? Tha-thats p-pa-past ten-se. N-no y/n you can’t just leave! Please I need you. I love you not Maeve!”

you didn’t bother turning around to meet his expression “If you loved me and not Maeve you wouldn’t have compared me to her” you almost made it though the door when he asked “Wait please I-I know that I just lost my temper please at least tell me where will you be staying at least let me know you’ll be safe” You turned around “I’ll be staying with a friend” And with that you walked out of the door hearing Reids sobs.

Reid slid down the wall trying to cover up his sobs since he knew the walls were paper thin but it was no use. You didn’t say it exactly but he knew you needing space was also you saying that you’re breaking up with him. He didn’t know what to do.

He didn’t know if you would ever forgive him.

The next couple of days were awkward and uncomfortable for you. Everyone on the team had found out what happened through Emily and kept throwing you and Reid glances and looks full of pity. They saw the bags under yours and Reid’s eyes and saw that you guys talked less and less to the point were you guys were always zoned out. You guys were real life walking zombies. And you hated it. You hated that you were getting pity looks and hated that you were acting like this over a guy. A cute guy you loved but a guy that also broke your heart. Reid kept trying to talk to you whenever you were alone so you had made it your mission to always be around someone or at least you tried to do that. Little did you know the team had a meeting about you and Reid and they were determined to make you guys talk again.

There had been a case about child abduction and you thought you would go the local police station with Prentiss but unfortunately you thought wrong.

“Y/L/N and Reid go the victims family and talk to them.” You turned your head around so fast you nearly got whiplash. Emily knew you and him weren’t talking right now. So what in the hell was she doing?! But as much as she was your friend she was also your boss and you knew you couldn’t go against her orders. So you bit your tongue and held back your words.

The car ride started out in uncomfortable silence until Reid broke the silence. “Look I-I’m sorry Y/N I don’t know what came over me but I’m sorry what I did was an awful thing. You’re your own person and I respect that. It’s true you aren’t Maeve but you’re y/n. My y/n. And you’re amazing in your so many ways.” You knew you couldn’t hold a grudge against him anymore but that also didn’t mean you could get back together. “I forgive you” You could see hope light up in his eyes and you felt bad for what you were saying next. “but that doesn’t mean I can’t forget what happened Spencer. It hurt it really fucking hurt and I don’t think I could ever move past that. You broke my trust in a way and it made me rethink our whole relationship.”

Spencer couldn’t believe it. He knew he had to gain your trust again. To make you believe that you were the love of his life. And he would do anything to make you believe that so he pulled the car over to the side and got out. You looked at him confused as he rounded the car to your side opening your door and taking your hand gently leading you out of the car. Confused you asked him “Uh w-what are you doing?” He looked at you with a adorable shine in his eyes. “We’re starting over so I can prove to you that you’re the love of my life not anyone else. Hello! My name is Doctor Spencer Reid”

He waved since he knew the first time you guys met you guys never shook hands instead he blurted out a random physics joke because he was unsure of what to say to you and to his surprise you laughed completing the joke. So he said the exact same joke “What did one electron say to the other electron?” And at the same time you both started smiling like a pair of fools. You knew what he was doing. He was re-enacting the first time you guys met. You both answered at the same time “Don’t get excited you’ll only get into a state!” You laughed saying “I’m y/n y/l/n and that was a good joke doc”

You and he knew that rebuilding the trust wasn’t going to be easy but saying hello was a start.

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Jerome Clarke x Reader

Warnings- none

Genre- fluff and slight(?) angst

You’d been having a bad day. Sweet had given you detention for being late which made that your third detention of the week, you had gotten into an argument with your father who wasn’t around at all, and being cursed by Senkarah definitely wasn’t helping.

You had crept downstairs after lights out (thankfully not being caught by Victor and having to clean the toilets) to make some night tea so you could hopefully get some sleep. You were zoned out while the tea was heating and suddenly you felt a light tap on your shoulder.

“Wh-“

You felt a hand cover your mouth to stop you from yelling.

“Shh, you’re gonna wake up the whole house Y/L/N”

You knew the voice, it was a voice you’d never forget, well that and the fact that only one person really called you by your last name.

“Jerome, seriously? Why the hell are you up? It’s late.”

“I could ask you the same thing.”

“Well, I asked you first.”

“I couldn’t sleep. I studying for our french test”

You turned around and finally saw him. He looked ethereal in a way. The soft white glow from the moon made him look like an angel. He was wearing a white Henley and plaid pjs. His hair was an absolute mess but he still looked adorable.

He put his arms around you loosely

“Now your turn. Why are you up?”

You couldn’t tell him why you were up as much as you wanted to at least the real reason you weren’t up

“Nothing.”

You smiled softly at him, eyes pleading to not ask anymore question about it

“What are you making in the microwave?”

“Tea”

He looked like you’d just murdered his dog. In all honesty you were way too lazy to properly heat up the tea and besides it would taste just as fine you thought

“You did not just make tea in the microwave! That’s almost wait no is disrespectful”

Ok jeez did not think microwaving yea would be a bad thing-

“Ok well I don’t have the energy to make tea”

Jerome saw that you weren’t joking for the first time he looked closely at you. He could see the bags under your eyes and…were those tear stains? “Hey, w-what’s wrong? Do you wanna talk about it”

Him saying that broke the dam inside of you “No I don’t. Can you just hold me please?”

He didn’t respond instead he wrapped his long arms around you and put his chin on top of your head kissing you. “Do you wanna go to my room you can sleep in there for the night?”

You broke out of the hug and looked at him to see he was being serious “Yeah. Thanks”

He took your hand forgetting about the tea and let you into your room. You knew that Alfie and the gang were out into the tunnels but you bailed since you weren’t feeling well so it was just your and Jerome. He laid down first and then instructed you to lay down as well and you did as you were told too tired to make a sarcastic remake about not wanting to listen to what he says. He pulled you into a warm hug and kissed your forehead.

Whispering “Goodnight Y/N” and you whispered back “Goodnight Jer” but very softly he added something. Something you didn’t miss “I love you Y/N Y/L/N” He had thought you were asleep but was shocked when you sleepily kissed his chest and said “I love you Jerome Clarke”

Spencer Reid x BAU reader

Genre- Angst

Warnings- Swearing

Part 1

“Come on Spencer! Are you seriously yelling at me when I was just in the middle of a fucking shootout?!”

You and Spencer had just gotten into your hotel room for the night since the jet wasn’t ready to go yet after catching the unsub. Though catching him wasn’t easy. The unsub decided to start shooting at you while trying to escape which resulted in you getting shot twice in the arm and once near your abdomen. You had your vest on though so really the bullet left you a nasty bruise and took you off your feet which honestly left you pretty battered. But you did catch him.

But Spencer wasn’t too happy about that since he was overprotective over his significant other. “Yeah I am yelling at you! What you did was stupid you should’ve waited for backup Y/N”

“It was either wait for backup and risk letting the unsub get away! I did what I had to do you would’ve done the same and you know-“

“But you could’ve called me to help! You called Alvez instead!”

“This is what you’re mad about? That I didn’t call you and I called Luke instead!! Spencer this is ridiculous. I called for backup randomly I didn’t exactly have time to look for your name!”

“That’s not the point I’m your boyfriend not him I should’ve been the first person you called! I should’ve been there you could’ve gotten hurt”

You felt bad but at the same time who you called didn’t determine who you thought was significant

“Spence please try to understand I would’ve called you but I was getting shot at I was kind of distracted. I don’t understand Spencer this is sort of ridiculous you’re my boyfriend I love you and Luke he’s one of my closest friends”

“No that isn’t it Maeve would’ve never called him for help she would’ve called me matter of fact she wouldn’t have been stupid to go into danger by herself! She thought things through unlike you!!”

To say you were shocked was an understatement. You knew who Maeve was, Spencer had told you after you guys had started to date but he always reassured you that he loves you. He’d never lashed out at you like this before.

“Wow.” You scoffed. You could see that he regretted those words as soon as they left his pink lips.

“Y/N wai-“ you cut him off. “I’m going to stay with Emily and JJ tonight” You had already started to take your go bag and were out the door. “B-but they only had two beds-“

“I’d rather sleep on the floor than be here right now. Have a goodnight Reid” The words were harsh as they left your mouth and you knew that but you couldn’t feel the guilt at the moment all you could feel was anger and betrayal.

Spencer knew that he messed up bad when you had called him ‘Reid’ and you NEVER called him Reid. And as the door was slammed by you all he could feel was guilt and thought how he would fix this.

What dating Jerome Clarke would be like…

- sneaking around at night

- attempting to bake but really everytime it would end up in a good fight

- Jerome getting jealous when you talk to another person so he would walk up to you and put his arm around your shoulder

- trading insults but never going too far

- getting into fights because of secrets like him working for Rufus but always making up at the end of the week because he can’t lose you

- stealing his jumpers when it’s cold

- Jerome would take your phone away and hold it up high to the point you wouldn’t be able to reach it because he wants attention

- sneaking into his room at night or in your room if he or you missed each other