Serendipity

For now on, I'm gonna try to use this place like my own personal diary. I'm just to yap about everything with anyone. I keep talking, talking, and talking with absolutely no filter in front of people I (used to) think are cool with my thoughts

But right now, I'm not so sure anymore. idk if there's something wrong with my thoughts, or if there's something wrong with the people I used to see as friends. But there's definitely something wrong.

I'm trying to understand, where did everything went south. I'm trying to backtrack the last few months. I see a few of my mistakes. But they make me wonder if there's something I'm not seeing.

The way they reacted, it makes make feel like an awful person. Like there's something absolutely and irreparably wrong with me. But I'd like to disagree.

Is not that I'm trying to play de victim here. Like I said, I have no problem admitting my mistakes. Is just that, I feel like they left me with cero choices. They decided something so drastically, without giving me a chance to respond, even to react.

I feel lost, I feel so confused. Is not like I would like to destroy everything. But it feels like they already did it, and they blame me. It's like, everything is lost because of my actions, and they are making sure I won't forget it.

But I would like that they see themselves too, that they look themselves in the mirror and accept the mess they made.

I'm no saying I didn't do anything wrong, I don't have a problem apologizing when you tell me my actions hurt you. But I think it would it be nice if you do the same for me.