TW: Talk about Anxiety, Stress, Self Doubt and babies
So it’s been hard the past couple of weeks, and I’m having a hard time dealing with it all.
There was some major issues during Christmas, and I still haven’t managed to figure out what it going on.
And then I started a new job, and it is amazing. But people all day long- it’s an adjustment.
And babies- fucking hell.....
It’s something I can’t talk about easily. How my PCOS makes me fee, how I deal with it. How infertility is something I struggle with daily. And how people in my life are pregnant. I feel like a failure, a disaster and an absolute mess.
I have been an emotional wreck about my fertility.. And I know that I don’t want to give up, I really don’t. But I’ve had to make some hard decisions about it, about my future as a mother.
And then tonight, friggen fireworks made me fucking cry.
I feel like a pain in the ass, I feel like a bad person and I feel like I just need to shut up. This sucks......
