Somewhere In The Clouds

No I don’t want to see your dick. I’m posting because I think I’m hot. Want something I don’t post? Don’t ask if you aren’t willing to pay byeee

Sorry I missed your call. I was masturbating to Greedy by Tate McCray

Don’t mind me and my cute little grippy socks just trying to gain my sanity back. I feel so broken and tired.

I just want to lose weight now and it sucks I hate my brain

I wonder how many unpeeled oranges it would take to fill the human body head to toe. No organs no muscles just oranges.

Why do I miss you so much? Our relationship had so much bad. It had so much good too. So much passion. We were both the one that got away. Why didn’t you just get help sooner? Six years of begging you to get help. Why wasn’t I enough for you to get help? You fixed everything supposedly now. Why wasn’t I enough to do it with me? I can’t miss you. This hurts so bad. I miss you. I wish you could come back and we both get to restart. I’d fall in love with you millions of times over. I’m still in love with you. I can’t tell anybody. I can’t talk about it. You abused me. You broke my heart over and over. And I still want you. I still miss you. My body feels like it’s missing layers. I miss you. It’ll never get easier. You were supposed to be my forever.

Everyday it’s harder to take care of myself. Wake up. Do basic things. I’m drained. I’m empty. I have nothing left in me. I hate not drinking. I hate not having a job because of my health. I hate my health. I hate myself. I’m so tired.