Always Here to Listen

|| Really sorry that this is late! Aaaahh hopefully this is still relevant to anyone going through this! Please know that you’re enough, and will always be, yeah? You have a nice day too, hun! ||

SLAM.

Suddenly it’s hard to tell what hurts more.

The stinging of your palm after slamming it against the whole, or crushing blow to your ego after hearing the news of being replaced.

Semi responds to the slam by running to the living room, only to see you slowly fall to your knees as you can’t tell what exactly you’re feeling. Anger? Pain? Frustration? Sadness? A horrible mix of it all?

You were hurting all over.

You hurt all over.

As much as you knew that it was fair, it didn’t feel right.

All your hard work felt like it had been rejected down the drain.

You feel a pair of strong arms hold you. You don’t even have to look to know that it’s him hugging you tight. His hold on you is secure and close as if he didn’t want you to leave, even if he knew you weren’t going anywhere. You’d tease him about it, but now wasn’t the time.

You didn’t have the emotional capacity for that. Especially when you feel like the weight of the world is crashing down on you.

The tears start to escape your eyes, and you try not to sob to loud. You’re not that weak. You can’t let something that means you need to keep trying to make you cry like this, right?

But oh you knew, the answer was no.

“Replaced,” you choke bitterly. “Who knew? Am I even cut out for this?”

The setter doesn’t say a word. A hand runs down your hair as you sniffle and hiccup.

Silence keeps the two of you company. Your sobbing fills the room, and Semi stays with you through it all.

What he says takes you aback, but somehow it just eases you for that very moment.

He can only hope it will linger and keep you at bay.

|| Hey there, I’m sorry this is rather late but I really hope you’re managing at the moment and all. I hope this somehow helps with the situation. Stay strong, yeah? And remember that you’re very much free to vent anytime especially when needed. ||

How do you fight something that isn’t there?

How do you tell it to go away when it’s actually not there?

For a moment you try to block it all out. You close your eyes, hoping that it eventually it would all leave, that you’d be able to fully function after moments of trying to just breathe and remain composed.

But it does get draining, whether you admit it or not.

“Hey,” a familiar voice utters as you feel hands cup your cheeks.

You open your eyes, find Inuoka giving you that tender smile of his.

Now this was real.

“Water?” He offers, ready to get up from his seat on the couch. At times like this, his priority is to keep you calm and away from the things you may be hearing, seeing or feeling.

You shake your head in response and he nods in understanding. He allows you to lean against him as he interlaces his fingers with yours.

Inuoka doesn’t really say anything else, but instead reassures you that you are in his company, with you, beside you, at your side.

But most importantly, very much tangible.

|| This is really late and I’m sorry but I do hope that this still helps anyone who needs it! You have a good day too, honey! ||

Unable to sleep, Matsukawa welcomes you into his quarters. He switches the lamp on as you sit next to him. “Am I bothering you?” You question. He shakes his head in response, pulling you into his embrace. A soft lullaby is sung by the man and you can’t help but smile in amusement. He allows you to relax by his side, to shake off the worries and previous anxiousness you had felt prior to the situation at hand.

Hanamaki’s solution to sleep trouble is some hot chocolate and a chat or two. Honestly you’re not sure how he does it, and how he can remain so calm and collected. As you two lounge on the couch, he allows you to rest your head on his lap. He lets a small smile curve his lips as he notices the tension in your body seem to lessen. His calming aura lulls you to slumber and somehow it’s as if there’s nothing to worry about any longer.

|| It’s not too specific at all, dear. I hope this helps with whatever you’re going through and you’re free to message and vent here, yeah? ||

He doesn’t question why she hasn’t called or texted.

Though honestly, Daichi is concerned of her. He figured space would do for a while, until she decided to not show up the following day.

Such has then prompted him to visit his girlfriend.

The look on her face was shock the moment she saw him. She blinks as the captain gives her a gentle smile. “Can I come in?” He asks.

And so, she lets him in.

Silence surrounds them as she finds herself in the embrace of her lover. She looks back at him before glancing back at the television screen. Daichi rests his chin on her shoulder, soothing eyes locked onto her as his fingers laced through hers.

“I’m glad you’re okay.” He says. “I was rather worried.”

“Worried?” His girlfriend said rather confused.

He nodded in response.

Her hands hold his and finally she leans against him. Her back against his broad chest, they sit together in silence as the show they watch goes on.

There’s the question that Daichi may have training today, but she decides not to bring it up, figuring what he had decided to do after school.

He decided to stay with her.

But if it meant being sure, that she was still around.

|| I’m so sorry this is late and all. At least now I can actually write, though I have some org homework holding me back from getting to these messages sooner than I like since my break began weeks ago. But I do hope that this will provide some smiles and comfort, even if it’s just a small one! ||

Though perhaps it may not seem like it, Oikawa is a great caretaker. Then again it is to be expected from a man who likes to serve and give his all to his comrades.

After all, the king leads to serve, right?

As the soft music resonated in their apartment, the Grand King placed the mug of tea down the coffee table before glancing to his right. At his view was his boyfriend sound asleep after reading through a book.

The whole sight was refreshing, honestly.

Usually he sees the man pull his hair, go through longer shifts and seeing him miserable just tore Oikawa’s heartstrings.

He didn’t want to see him in pain, in tears.

Not again.

Never again.

Grabbing the plate of crumbs where toast was once placed, the brunet was about to bring it to the kitchen until a gentle hand tugged at the hem of his shirt.

Oikawa immediately turned to his drowsy companion.

“Stay,” he heard the other murmur.

Such caused the setter to chuckle a little. “But I have to get this cleaned.” He responded a tad playfully.

His boyfriend feigned a pout. “It can wait.”

“We’re going to get roaches in the apartment.”

“Tooru, a cuddle session, especially with you, only lasts for minutes. And why would roaches find crumbs of toasted bread enticing?”

Oikawa then let out a fake sigh of defeat, placing the plate down and raising his hands up. He settled next to his partner, before lying down on the couch.

Knowing it as a signal to lie on him, his boyfriend did so. His head resting on Oikawa’s chest.

The setter’s fingers then ran through the hair of his lover.

Neither knew how long they stayed in their position.

I talked to her about these fears again and once again she was really understanding and she reassured me that nothing won’t change. We’ll still talk to each other for hours, rp about HQ and other anime, etc. She reassured me plenty of times but whenever I’m sitting alone in my room, these “what ifs” and doubts and fears and anxieties start to fester and overwhelm me that I just break down in tears. I don’t expect you to give me clear cut answers but I don’t know what to do with myself…

|| Hey dear, I’m really sorry this is late. Tumblr didn’t notify me of new messages and I’ve been rather busy with college and org work. And honestly I’m not sure how to comfort you entirely regarding your situation, but one of the things you have to have is faith in your friend.

Yes, she’s going to be entering a new chapter in her life, but she will still be there for you. That is something I am sure of despite it all. I’m glad you were able to talk to her about your worries. It’s something that needed to be talked about especially since you’re feeling all anxious and worried.

Her marriage may be coming, but try not to think of what’s ahead for now. You have a year to spend with her. Cherish every moment you spend with her. Look at the “nows,” at the current. It sounds easier said than done, but it’s one of the things that you can do.

No matter what, Akaashi will try to calm despite the worry that tries to overwhelm him. He will always be understanding, making sure that she does not feel alone. At some days, if given the opportunity and permission, he would stay with her in her place and put her to sleep by telling her words of reassurance, stories and now and again a gentle lullaby.

He’ll make sure you feel safe around him. His only wish is to be able to wash the feelings of pain and fear away from her, but he knows that such cannot be done in a snap. It will take time, recovery and ensuring that she is not defined by her flaws and weakness, but he will always be willing to step on glass with her.

|| Hey guys! So college is in two days, and in order for me to get a hang of things, I will putting this blog on hold for a bit. I’ve got to work hard this year, especially since I’m planning to shift to another course that involves my grades to be above average and I know that I need to push for it if I want to achieve my dreams of becoming a doctor.

The ask will be open for messages and chats though, but requests may be open again in a month or so? Well it may depend on how accustomed I’ll be with writing and the workload I’ll have.